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Fantastic baby!

2012-03-06T22:11:00.000+01:00

BIG BANG released the MV for Fantastic Baby today! I have been waiting all day to see it and I saw it... And... DAESUNG IS FUCKING HOT!!! Where did he hide for all these years? [click for larger!]

I mean... JUST LOOK AT HIM!! Gaahh..... This is exactly how I want my man to look, not more, not less... ^_^ And T.O.P? He is really CUTE in this video, yes cute, not hot! His smile, blue hair and his sweet looking eyes.... kekeke!

Kya~ Yes he is so cute!! But the video in all is very sexy! They doesn't have to take their clothes off to be sexy, but they did anyway and all fangirls probably exploded in a fangasm... ; ) haha! They should have put a "Waring - might cause heart-attacks and nosebleed!" sigh before the video! :D haha!

I actually have been singing this song all day today! Bom schackalacka~ Bom schackalacka~ Bom schackalacka~ And here is the video for you:

I really liked this video! But I can't wait for the video to Wings! I have really fallen for that song, it makes me haengboghan! Daesung has a good voice and gets the chance to show it in this song. It makes me wanna go crazy! I love it! ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Oh, did I mention I was tired this morning? Well.. We went to kindergarten.. One hour before she was supposed to be there, at 08.00 (She is suposed to be there at 09.00)... And at 09.15 I was thinking... "Did I leave her too early?" Yes I did... hahaha! Wow, sometimes lack of sleep really makes you confused.... hahaha!

Bai~
Annyeong~

I was Pon this Way...

2012-03-06T07:27:00.001+01:00

.. Tired in the mornings that is! And while sick it's even worse to wake up early in the morning... Kids have parents who take care of them when sick... But who takes care of the parent? And when the parent get too sick to take care of the kid, who takes care of the kid? Just wondering....
Trying to sweat the cold away last night... Failed..... I put on a knitted sweater and had the blanket under the warm cover... Woke up freezing my ass of! Yes... Freezing! I was lying on top of it all..... And then I fell asleep again, and woke up by Tindra asking to sleep in the sofa. That was OK when she was sick.. Not anymore... But she don't get that.. So she stood crying for about 40 min and then it was about 30 minutes left before the alarm rang, so it was just "put on that fake smile and get out of bed" and this day is going to be really interesting...
Tindra will be crying all day and I will be cranky.... Yeay this day! And she can't go to bed early cuz we are going to mum tonight and it will be a late night.

My throat is killing me. Not even a slight recovery. But at least it's not getting worse. But I hate having a sore throat. If you have a headache you can take a pill and it will be over.. But for this, nothing works!! And yes today will be a whiny day and you have to bare with it cus that's just the way it pon....

Studying = Study + dying... Will be interesting today.. Can't even see the words in front of me and neither the less understand what I'm reading... I don't even know if I get the assignment right.. It's the first assignment all over again when I had that cold and had snot instead of a brain.... haha! I think it's something about Gustav Wasa.. Vasa? Anyway.... And something about.... I have to read it again! I should at least know how to spell Gustav Wasa right? Or is it Vasa? haha! HEY, I'M BORN IN SWEDEN, but I', not a Swede... ; ) I was supposed to be born in some other, warm, country! ; )

Time for kidergarten!!

Bai~
Annyeong~

Fighting!!!

2012-03-05T13:41:00.000+01:00

This is how I cure my sickness right now!

Yogurt with frozen raspberries, painkillers/anti-inflammatory, throat tablets, nasal spray and chocolate. And don't forget the green tea with the honey and the scarf around my neck.

Couldn't find my assignment of the Fronter webpage so I e-mailed my teacher and got an answer in about 3-4 minutes!! Wow... And it was such a boring assignment... But I think I can make it! I know I can! I'll write either about colonization in India or maybe Scandinavia in the 1500 and 1600s.... Hmm... I think Scandinavia, I find that most interesting.....

I will share one of my absolute favorite songs in the world right now. It's such a beautiful song (With Eng lyrics for you). I don't know who sang the original song, but this is performed by SHINee's Jonghuyn and Onew! Makes me both happy and sad....

And with that I'll say good bye.... I have to study really hard now!! *Crying from the song. Sob sob...*

Bai~
Annyeong~

(Forgot to post it.. kekeke)

I don't want to!!!!

2012-03-04T13:16:00.000+01:00

Gaaaah! I don't wanna!!! Feels like I have swallowed a tennis ball or something.... It's hard do swallow, it hurts and my nose is running. I spent the morning in bed with the heater on and now I drink honey tea... Seems to work... A bit maybe? I have a scarf on, I hate being sick! I'm almost always sick during winter and I was so glad I didn't get he flu with Tindra, but I guess it's my time now? I will do all I can not to get sick, cuz I have studies to do!!! Lots of it.... *Cries* And we are going out partying next Saturday.....

Now I'm going to relax in Secret Garden... ; )
(Only the drama addicts got that I think!)

Bai~
Annyeong~

Family time!

2012-03-03T17:59:00.000+01:00

I have the most beautiful daughter in the world! She always tells me she loves me, hug me and kiss me. And when I get sad she always come and give me hugs and kisses! I am really lucky to have her! Even if she sometimes can be a diva and a pain in the ass sometimes, but I think all kids are like that and all mothers feel the same! ; )
She is really smart too! Wonder who she got that from? haha! She is really good at math... I suck at math.. haha! And sometimes she surprise me with her adult way of thinking and talking.... I'm a proud mother! AND!!! She is a fan of 2NE1! keke! "Bom ratatata tatata ta ta! Beat~"
Went for some Saturday cozy evening candy today! Got a bit much I think... But.. We are worth it! After almost 2 weeks of sickness we can finally enjoy something. We are having grilled chicken and fries for dinner tonight! I love grilled chicken!! But I'm afraid of the bones, taking the meat of it and the cracking.. haha!

Well, have to get the fries ready!

Bai~
Annyeong~

Antique Bakery - the movie

2012-03-01T13:11:00.000+01:00

I just finished watching the movie "Antique Bakery" from 2008 with Joo Ji Hoon and my darling Kim Jae Wook in the lead. The movie is as much about the people in it, as the story. I like how they made the movie both mysterious, funny and a bit romantic with a sexual tension.... It's not a movie you cry to, thou I love those kind of movies. In best case you laugh until you cry! If you like to cry... And now I want to see the drama show.... Too...

Synopsis from the page I'm streaming it from:

"As an heir to the family fortune, Jin-hyuk has money, the looks, the charm, everything except finding the love of his life. So he sets up a cake shop where women are sure to come. He hires Sun-woo, a talented patissier who had a crush on Jin-hyuk back in high school. Along with an ex-boxing champion Gi-beom and a clueless bodyguard Su-young, the four unique and handsome young men stir up the quiet neighborhood at their cake shop, Antique. Although seemingly careless and happy, each of the four men have unforgettable past that they are afraid to face, but their secrets slowly begin to unravel..."

A movie filled with cute boys... Gay boys.... And cakes! Couldn't be better! I wonder why it took me so long to see this movie. I have read about it and put it on my "to watch list" a long long time ago. And I really like Jae Wook as an actor (And yes he is damn cute too!) so why? Why didn't I see this earlier? Anyways, now I have seen it and I loved it!

Now I just have to get to the other movies in my "to watch list"... If I get the time... I realized movies are better than dramas if you're short on time, but dramas/series are better than movies!
And yes, annyeong was the right way to sat good bye too.. ; )

Bai~
Annyeong~

Big Bang Mini Album ALIVE - Out Now!

2012-02-28T21:01:00.000+01:00

It's out! It's out!!
Omg it's so awesome I almost cried (OK I cried a little...) and every single song is totally awesome! Well done Big Bang and YG! You can download it on iTunes or listen so some of the songs here on allkpop.com! My favorites are "Wings" solo by Daesung and "Fantastic Baby". And "Blue" of course! But you already knew that. No... All of the songs are my favorite! Even the Intro! haha! <3 I can't decide... ^_^
This album will go on repeat for a while now I think. I'm in love! I'm so happy! And stunned... Don't know what to say, I just want to sit here and enjoy every song again and again! I really hope their Alive tour will come to Europe, I don't care if I have to sell my soul, give away my cats and ell my grandmother... I WILL BE THERE! I'm keeping my fingers crossed, Europe YG! EUROPE LOVES YOU TOO!!! OK? *Sigh* Why am I always born in the wrong country? Cold and no k-pop! haha!

Bai~
Jal-ga~
Annyonghi-gaseo~ (haha)

Did I do it wrong?

2012-02-28T13:16:00.000+01:00

Why why why have no one told me I have done it all wrong from the beginning? Saying good bye... Is it Annyeong? Or is it Jal-ga? (Annyonghi-gaseo?) Now I'm confused....

Cookies

2012-02-27T16:23:00.000+01:00

2 more days until the release of Big Bang's mini album! Listening to the previews of the songs I'm sure this will be an awesome album! They have like a whole new sound, not like their previous songs and albums, wish is a bit disappointing but at the same time really good since maybe they needed something new, a change. This seems to fit them well! Not sure about T.O.P's blue hair thou.. haha! But he is still hot, no matter what! ^_^

I'm happy to have friends experienced in college studies. I would be lost without them! haha! At least now I know when to apply and what I need and where! Lovely! I feel very exited about this! 3,5 years of studies seems hard... But since this is something I like and I think I'm guaranteed almost immediate work after the studies I will fight til my last drop of blood to get through this education! And this time no one or nothing will stop me. Not even bullying from teachers or stupid boyfriends! FIGHTING!!

The weekend was nice. Lots of rest and good food. More of those days thank you!

당신은 나를 매일 즐겁게 웃으면서 만드는군요!

Dangsineun naleul maeil jeulgeobge useumyeonseo mandeuneungun-yo!

Today I'm making panda-cookie tryouts for Lisses birthday! Since Vea is making a panda cake! haha! I have to practice to make them perfect. And I have to check train tickets to Norrköping too!! *__* Maybe take a little side-trip too.. Hmm.. No.. yes? No! No.. Or? We'll see...

I have got an urge for traveling! Need to get away, meet my friends, or at least adult people! haha! I want to go places!!! And I want summer.. Seems like spring will never come....

And I want to take Korean classes too!! Gaaah! I want to do so much but still I sit like a handicapped person here unable to move. Why? My mind want to, but something is keeping it from doing it, and my body doesn't react.... "GET TO IT WOMAN! Why can't I? Just do it! DO IT!!! Apply to the course! Tindra can stay at someone when you are there. There is people there for you, just do it! What are you scared of?"

Let's go make panda cookies and then sit down to take a look at Korean classes! Ok? OK!

Bai~

Annyeong~

Wonderful news!!

2012-02-23T12:28:00.000+01:00

I have WONDERFUL news! And no, it's not about the princess being born today..... This is much better! I FIXED MY DISHWASHER!!!! I'm so freakishly happy!! It felt soooo gooood to hear it kick-start again. My dear dear dishwasher! <3 I love you!
Didn't get much cleaning dome yesterday... Just a machine of laundry. And today I hope my father keeps his promise and takes us to the supermarket! I really need to buy some food!

Tindra is a bit brighter today! The fever is down and I wish she could go to kindergarten tomorrow, but I don't think that would be nice to her.. And "someone" just comes up wit apology after apology not to take care of her.. I'm feeling ungratefully treated.... But I'm happy she is better! And I'm feeling sick, but I'm doing all in my way to stop that from happening! Not today, not right now....

I'm getting madder.. How can one person (And one stupid dream) make me this pissed off? I'm almost never mad...

Time to take out some frustration on cleaning! FIGHTING! *grabs broom and vacuum-cleaner*

Bai~
Annyeong~

Rain - Love story (Eng version)

2012-02-22T21:58:00.001+01:00

Blue, again....

2012-02-22T10:18:00.000+01:00

Blue blue blue.. Went from a happy song to a sad song yesterday! haha! But WOW it's AWESOME! I can't get over the fact that T.O.P is actually singing! Not only rapping. Buy it on iTunes!!
I'm going to buy the whole album on CD when available. And I want 2 SHINee albums and a 2NE1 album too! But o h - m y - g o d how expensive it is... iTunes is.. Well, ok.. But I want a CD! And it's the double in price if not even more.
(I'm singing my blues)
paran nun-mu-re paran seulpeume gildeulyeojyeo
(I'm singing my blues)
tteunkureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh

I feel so depressed today. Don't know why... Tindra is sick, she have fever, I have much to do and I wish I could get some discharge a few days a week. Every other weekend is fine, but it would be nice to have some relax time, to do the stuff I miss so much... Walking fast at night with music in my ears, sitting by the ocean and meditate and clearing my mind... The silly small things that I really miss doing... And now I'm crying... How stupid.... Just a small thing like visiting a friends house... I miss it...

Today's schedule is: Studying, cleaning, lunch, cleaning/washing, going to the mart, cleaning, dinner, cleaning/dishes, sleeping.... I have no life....

Oh how I love Boohwal's songs... They are comforting and loving! <3 Feels good to listen to some rock sometimes too. And the singer has such a sexy voice! :D <3

Well I have to stop now before I start to cry even more...

Bai~

Annyeong~

BLUE~

2012-02-21T13:45:00.000+01:00

Today I have weak heart. I have had small, irregular heart palpitations (hjärtklappningar) the whole morning and afternoon. The heart gets exhausted and it's hard to bread at its worst, so I took a pill. Didn't help, so I go to rest, didn't help.. Oh well I guess I'll die then... No I will take another pill later in the day. If that doesn't help I have to call the doctor and go to the emergency.. Again...

And just now I had a fangirl-heart-attack! BIG BANG's first song BLUE from their comeback album Alive is released today!! And it is awesome!!!!

If you want to hear it, there is someone who put it up on Tumblr. I don't have that stuff, but you can still listen! You can listen to it here if you want to! I am, on repeat! I really thought BLUE would be a song full of power, beats and dancing. But this is even better!! Even thou I don't understand that much of the lyrics (They are all about love/Sarang! haha!) but the feeling in the song makes me happy in love!! AND GODDAMNIT THEY ARE HOT!!! I relly like T.O.P's blue hair and both G.D's new nerd hairdo and Deasung... WOW! I don't like blond Asians that much, but this it too cool not to like! Total change in both character and style! From cute and sweet, to rellay cool (But yet still sweet right? ; ) )

Here is a better picture of G.D too! And Deasung's lovely smile! :D All pictures belong to Soompi by the way! It's the page I stole them from! haha! It's too bad that their new start had to begin with scandals and rumors. About G.D smoking weed and having a girlfriend. So what if he have a girlfriend, just let them be happy together who ever she is. And About the weed.. Haven't we all tried? Huh? Huh? YEAH I'M LOOKING AT YOU!!! *Pointing at you* Well anyway, I wish them the best om luck with the upcoming album release and I can't wait for the next song! <3 love you guise!

I have one and a half hour to clean up... Can I do it? Stupid heart... I will try!

Bai~
Annyeong~

Do not get white couches!!

2012-02-20T11:15:00.000+01:00

I'm so tired of having a white couch... The whole thing, well just the cover, just went into the washer! It's hard to keep something white white when you have one hell of a messy kid and two dirty cats! haha! I just finished cleaning The Princess' room, it's a perfect princess room now! Well, until she gets home anyway. But we had a bit of an argument yesterday about cleaning and I hope she got my point and keep it a bit cleaner.
I feel really exited about cleaning today, even thou I'm tired. I like a clean home, but it's hard sometimes... I would like some help sometimes! Either someone to have Tindra for a while or someone to help me clean... But I can't afford such luxury!

Get back to cleaning woman!!
Yes sir...

Bai~
Annyeong~

Love u guise!!

2012-02-19T19:32:00.000+01:00

"A humans heart is just like glass, so weak.

Deeply hurting and aching over such simple little things."

True story.... But my heart isn't hurting! Not right now. This is a bit from SHINee - Y.O.U, lyrics. Such a beautiful song! This very sentence is so extremely true in my case... I have a really weak heart! Emotional and easily hurt. But still strong and filled with love!
A special love to all my wonderful friends who I could not live without! Spread out all over this country, unable to see them when ever I want to. but still such a strong love and friendship! <3

~♥I LOVE YOU GUISE!!♥~

....This much!!....

My mad paint skills is mad!! Yesterday we watched the live stream from Korean TV from Music Bank in Paris! I wanted to go back, I want do do it all over again! This time with peace in my mind and some sleep in my body! haha! It was totally awesome to see again! The only thing I saw from me and Liss was our pink glow-sticks in the dark. Both disappointed and happy! haha! It would be awesome to say - Hey! that's me, there! I was there and I have proof!! But at the same time, when I saw the other fan-girls crying, sweating and screaming.. they didn't look that good, and I was even sweatier!! haha! A thick sweater and a wig in a place filled with lights and 10000 people jumping around... Well you can imagine it...

I have some pictures on my Dayviews page if you want to see? Just click the links below!
Day 1 - Music Bank
Day 3 - Sightseeing
I forgot the camera on day 2.... And I didn't take that many pictures.... The others took allot of pictures! This one is my favorite:

The whole gang right after Music Bank! I look ridiculously happy! haha! I was holding in the tears of happy! haha! I guess we all were very happy at that point! Awesome trip, indeed. Must do again!

AAH! And now I'm downlo... I mean renting..... the whole show so I can watch it over and over again! Pure love... Aahh... ♥

I have to go get Tindra back from the neighbor now, sleepy time!!

Bai~
Annyeong~

Se7en oppa~

2012-02-17T10:07:00.001+01:00

I have been really into Se7en lately and I have fallen in love with this song, Come back to me, I think it's called. And I really like the English version of the song! He is really good in English. And it's a really old video, sometime in the mid 90's I think! He was younger, but still better looking now! ; )

Look at his hair! keke... And the dancing! HAHA! <3 Sorry oppa, I love you... ; ) It's a really nice song! In English!

I was thinking today... YES! I was thinking.. haha! Anyway... How come people listening to American pop music or anything like it, dislike K-pop? I mean.. When I hear a beat from an American song, I immediately get a k-pop song in my head with the same beat. It's almost the same, but in another language! And no, I can't speak Korean, but I don't care (a-a-a-a-re... No I don't ca-a-a-a-a-are.. 2NE1! See.. I'm that messed up! haha!) about tha language! I like reggeaton beats too, in Spanish! And I can't speak Spanish! Can you? But I'm dancing anyway!
So.. Why can't you like k-pop? Give it a chance!
T-ara for example have some really good remixes! And Lovey dovey is really good without remix! YES I have fallen in love with that song too....

T-ara - Lovey dovie, Zombie version! ; ) And Listen to Roly Poly!
Girls Generation's - Mr Taxi!

And isn't it more fun to dance to stuff you actually could learn to dance? And not that wrote caressing dances where yo have to look like... like.. A stripper? Ho? Ho? HO!
I'll give you "non k-pop redeemed" some songs to party with tonight! ; )

T-ara - Ya Ya Ya

Nobody - WonderGirls

SISTAR - How Dare You

2PM Hands Up

Big Bang (G-Dragon & T.O.P. Ft Park Bom)-OH YEAH

G-Dragon (Big Bang) & T.O.P (Big Bang) - GD&TOP Vol.1 (Full) - 02 HIGH HIGH

Big Bang - Tonight

2NE1 - Don't Stop The Music

Well that will do for now... Let's hope you have a great party toniii~iiight, tonii~iight.....
; )

Bye~
Annyeong~

A letter to mother nature....

2012-02-16T09:37:00.000+01:00

Dear mother nature
I have been good, I have been nice. I don't throw garbage on the ground and I recycle. I like you, actually I love you. But now you are starting to get on my nerves. Why do you torture me with this winter-thingy? I'm cold, I have pain, I slip and slide on the snow, I get sick, I get almost blind! So why? Is it really necessary to have this long and cold winters? How about we make a deal... I can agree with a two month long winter, and I will give you anything in return! OK? So... Take away the winter now so I can be happy!

Oki then bye bye!
Yours truly / Teri

OMG!

2012-02-15T14:25:00.000+01:00

OMG! We even made Liss think about being Lolita!!! :O *Drop jaw*

But with this it wasn't that hard... ; )

Lolistalkers watch out!!

2012-02-15T14:22:00.001+01:00

I have decided to try something new! I'm going Lolita! Yes... I'm not that cute, but I found this extremely awesome skirt and a perfect wig! So now I'm exited about NärCon this summer! Maybe I'll wear the Lolita outfits more that on just NärCon, but that will be my goal! And the best thing is.. It's not that expensive!! Cosplays cost more.... Wow...

Here is a picture of it!

I's only the skirt, but a blouse isn't that hard to find and I was supposed to get one from my darling twin Liss! And a petticoat isn't that expensive! And shoes I think I have some.... And a long read/brown-isch wig!

What do you think? Will it fit me? My style and personality?

And of course my Maid-sama! cosplay! I hope it will happen! I have to save allot of money now! Again... haha!

I WANT SUMMER NOW! I'm so sick of snow!! I want to dress pretty and go outside without having to put on 5 lairs of clothes.... I hate being cold... I'n not supposed to live in Sweden.. Stupid cold weather....

Making plans about summer.. Can't wait!

Bai~
Annyeong~

I'm a poor woman....

2012-02-14T22:23:00.000+01:00

Yesterday I called the Medical advice line (or what ever it's called...) about the pain in my stomach... She said I have to go to the gynecology and get it checked up. I got all stunned when she asked me: "Have you pooped?" "What the f... Fss... Eehh... What kind of.. Yes I have!!" haha!

Today I called and told them my symptoms and she ruched away to see if I could get an appointment today! TODAY! That felt like it's something serious.. Usually you have to wait... But maybe there was someone who canceled their appointment and I got that one. But I was still scared of what's causing the pain... I see all crazy things like cancer or a big cyst that I have to operate! I'm so scared of hospitals and needles! And if they can't find anything wrong.... Then the doctor need to check me up! And then what could it be? I'm scared....
I haven't had any fever, but that's not unusual to me, I haven't had fever in about 9 years or so... 5 maybe... But anyway, you can have sickness without symptoms!

My receipt said: Emergency!! I got a MALE gynecologic, a Russian one! I'm scared of Russians.. haha! But it was OK.... Payed allot of money to find out.. -Hey! I'm a woman with woman problems... Pisses me off.... Never going to the doctor again! haha!

So totally tired today! Fell asleep on my mothers sofa (it's a nice sofa!) even thou I went to bed early yesterday.. But ofc Tindra had to wake up in the middle of the night, trying go get to sleep with me or in the sofa... She have to stop doing that! It will kill me if she have to wake up every single night!!

Now I will turn on the TV and go to bed!

Bye~
Annyeong~

Paris!

2012-02-12T19:50:00.000+01:00

Here is some pictures I stole from Vea!

Click for bigger and better! <3

Ya ya ya Lucifer So beautiful my girl!

2012-02-12T18:26:00.000+01:00

Music Bank Paris 2012 was A W E S O M E ! ! ! ! Liss and I stood close to the scene and screamed our lungs out! We bought t-shirts and glow-sticks and went down to the stage area and was amazed about how few people there was there! Most of the people had seats. We stood about 5 meters from the stage, of not even closer. We could hear SNDS even when their microphones didn't work and people screaming around us!

2PM did a really nice performance and got the audience with them in a great show! Even if they aren't my favorites they were the best in performance way! And SHINee without Onew seemed lost and sad, but they fought and did well. They forgot about Onews part once, it got all quiet when his part came in Lucifer once, but saved it! ; )
Ofcourse SHINee and Batoost/Beast/B2st was the favorites! T-ara too! And SNSD! Oh what the heck everyone was super!!
I felt a bit bad for SISTAR who didn't get as much support from the audience as the others, but they did well too! We danced and sang along to most of the bands songs and that made the cameramen come very...... Very close... We had cameras in our face many times.. I hope it doesn't show anywhere! haha! Sweaty, tired and I had very too much makeup on! haha! Bright lights make every pore in your face show.....

When it was time for the last performance, SNSD, all the FANBOYS came out! haha! We went back a bit and lucky that! We would have been crouched!! haha! Big boys....

We also did some sightseeing while in Paris! But it mostly felt like being i Asia since we had dinner at a Japanese restaurant called Kyoto, we went to a Japanese "bubbletea" bar in Chinatown and had an amazing Chinese dinner! Luckily we had 4 Chinese people with us who could speak Chinese, or else we wouldn't know what to order. The menue was in Chinese and French! We had different kinds of meat; Duck, pork, beef (I think?) and chicken feet!! It was awesome! And when we had finished we decided to order some toad!! Yes, toad!! It tastes like a mix of chicken and fish. Not as bad as I had thought!

And we went to the Louvre too! It was OK... Liss and I mostly looked at other things.. haha! And then we got lost and claustrophobic so we searched for the exit. We waited for about an hour before the others told us they had already went to the metro... So we went back home to the hostel....

And today I found out Minho and maybe the others from SHINee was at the Eiffel tower while we were sitting there in the hard stone floor waiting.. Pisses me of that we didn't go there instead...

Anyway... The hostel.. Well we were prepared that it would be very nasty, so we didn't have any high expectations. But it was good! The only bad thing was that we got to share room with two BOYS!! Sleeping with one eye open....
And Paris ins nothing at all like in the movies! Dog poo everywhere and garbage everywhere.... Filthy town. I will never complain about Stockholm again!!

I didn't buy anything. Just some earmuffs! And I had lost of money left when I came home! Mostly thank to my conscience, Liss! haha! I found a really cute bow-tie hairpiece at a Lolita shop! 20 euro... But she stopped me from buying it. And I also found a very cute coat, 300 euros! haha!

But the whole trip was nice! Liss and I found out we are "brothers from another mother" or "long lost twins with a 2 year age difference"! haha! It was silly how much we thought alike, did stupid stuff at the same time, said same stuff at the exact same time! <3

Pics will come on Tuesday! It's mom's camera and she have the cord to the computer at home....

Now I'm back home and back to reality.... And reality struck me in the face... Nothing I want to bring up here right now, but I want to go back to Liss.... I need to laugh again!
I'm glad I have such wonderful friends and most of all such a lovely and understanding mother. <3
Maybe my stomach will get back to normal soon, I have to call the doctor tomorrow, it huts like hell sometimes.... If it's stress or something else I don't know, but I'm a bit scared....

Tomorrow I have to start with my studies again. Medieval time. More fun than Antic Rome! Did I tell you I got an A on that by the way? :D

Buuuh, I have to lie down... My head is spinning and I feel exhausted...

Bye...
Annyeong~

SOOOON!!!!

2012-02-07T14:41:00.000+01:00

I just fround out that SHINee is heading for Paris right now!!
Without Onew... : ( He is still recovering after his sickness... Get well soon dongsaeng Onew!! Can't help not to be a bit sad, since he is the one I like the most and really wanted to see.. But I'm still happy to see all the others members and bands! In less than 24 hours we will be in Paris!!!! : D

I'm so nervous!! I have slept a bit this morning since Tindra woke up in the middle of the night and wanted to sleep with me, wanted her "blankie Sixten" and then she had a nosebleed..... She is at kindergarten now and I really wanted to hug and kiss her more, but they wanted her to come play...

GAAH! I don't know if I got everything! OH! My straightener!! *Running to pack* There... Now I think I got everything! Have to go get ready! I'm leaving soon!! :'D

Bye~
Annyeong~

No stress?

2012-02-06T16:37:00.000+01:00

Oh the stress!! Tomorrow night I'm leaving for Stockholm to hang around with Jossan until we can take the bus to Skavsta airport. But first I have to make my very easily distracted daughter to clean up her things, do laundry and go to the grocery store. And I have to pack! And... My dishwasher broke and there is water underneath... I love it! Not... Maybe I don't have to go to the store.... It's just milk... haha!
But tomorrow all my worries will be gone as soon as I get on the bus! I have been so stressed and tensed I have been in pain!

Yesterday I had my nails done!

I didn't want too long or too much! I'm happy with this pretty sparkling pink! Like gay Edward! (Sorry, couldn't hold it! Haha!)

Oh I just talked to my dad! He will come with milk and bread to us! He's so kind! Then we won't have to stress out into the cold. -9 degrees now, but the wind makes it colder! *Brrr* I hate cold.... We just put the heater on again cuz it's really cold inside here too! Tindra is almost done cleaning. I have to vacuum and wash the floors... It's fub to clean sometimes, but most of the time it's hard cuz there is someone, I will not mention any names *cough*Tindra*cough* is dragging stuff around, putting them in another bad place instead of putting them where they belong....

I'm getting jiggy with it to this song today! Originally made for Sean Kingston, you might have heard it! I really like both versions, but the SHINee version is a bit more.. Hmm... It's not all party but also a bit of sweet innocent love! haha! My dongseangs are pure... ; )

Apparently there have been some arguing about who got the rights to this song, but SM actually bought the rights this song so both Sean Kingston and SHINee can sing as much as they want to! It makes me happy that SM is really trying worldwide, even if it's a slow progress!

Did anyone see Girls Generation on Tonight Show? They were awesome and today when I wrote "Girls..." in the search bar on YouTube Girls Generation was the first option. Isn't that because people search them? Right? Well I'm happy! And even more happy about seeing them live without having to go around the globe! I can live with a 2 hour flight! ; )

Well, Have to get ready! Dad is coming soon and why can' I learn to spell coming? I always write comming.... I'm stupid....

Bai~
Annyeong~

Dream!

2012-02-03T18:39:00.000+01:00

This night I had a dream... A strange dream!

My home town had been like a industrial town, this was way into the future, and big malls and centers where built everywhere. But there was a feeling hanging over the town, like a cold wet blanket filled with darkness. There were dragons living nearby. Once a month they attacked the town and on that day there was a curfew and everyone was hiding i safe rooms or under ground. The dragons were peaceful when no one was around. But suddenly one day they came, many of them, big as 4 stories buildings. Big, ugly and mean. It wasn't the day they usually came, no one was prepared. People started running in panic, cars went flying from the sweeping tales and the wind from their wings. They started grabbing people in their mouth, swallowing them whole. I saw my father running from his pickup truck to where I was hiding, behind a tarpaulin (Pressening in Swedish) stretched over some debris. I saw the panic in his eyes when a dragon suddenly landed behind him and he fell. On his knees, when he tried to get up, the dragon closed his big mouth around him and he was gone.

When they flew away for a while I got into a big mall, the roof had come down, but there was a cafeteria where the walls and roof had been reinforced to stand these kind of attacks. People gathered there and me and some guys sat in a corner trying to figure out what to do. Suddenly the dragons got back and started to tear down buildings. People ran underground but we stayed put. Watching as the big ugly dragons ate people like they were running meatballs. The guys were a bit older than me, but the hid behind me in fear. I felt no fear, I felt no anger, I only felt calm and surprisingly happy. Almost like I was enjoying the chaos!

And then I woke up by Tindra crying that she was peeing in my bed... I had to get up and change the sheets and get her clean. She went to her bed and I got back to sleep. I was trying to continue the dream, but I couldn't...

So.. I had to find out what dreaming about dragons mean! This is what I found:
"The parts of your sexual drive or feelings that are untamed and fiery. The dragon can also represent the power and magic of the unconscious. But to get the "gold" or treasure you have to deal with those wild forces within yourself."

Interesting! I have my own interpretation on this dream, but that's something I don't want to share with you! ^_^

♥----♥

I got a mail today from Hostelbookers.com! They wanted to remind me about my bnooking. AS IF I WOULD FORGET!?!?! This is like the biggest moment in my life, next to having a baby!

Did I mention they have free breakfast buffet? I'm so happy! It's cheap, modern and have free breakfast! It will be a nice little holiday! I just hope my tension in my shoulder will go away till then.... It hurts like hell! I need a massage.... BAD!

Today we ordered pizza and after we will have tortilla chips and popcorn! This weekend I will spend the most I can with Tindra cuz I won't be able to see her in 6 days when I leave! Tomorrow we are seeing a movie with a friend and her daughter, Puss in boots! I wanted to see that one too so.. ; )
And Sunday we'll spend in bed! <3 P will come too tomorrow!

Now I have to clean the kitchen and make Tindra get to clean too... I have tried for about 5 hours and she still doesn't get to it.... haha! I will throw away EVERYTHING for real this time.....

Bye~
Annyeong~

Je parle francias!

2012-02-02T21:53:00.001+01:00

Bonjour! I'm on YouTube trying to learn French! But I'm not sure I will have the nerve to use French more than; Bonjour, merci, oui, non... Well you know, the most common words! haha!

I'm so nervous! I guess you have figured that out by my spam of posts... haha! I'm a bit nervous about how it will go with Tindra at her father... I think I trust him! haha! No, I trust him!

By the way... Why have no one told me that batoost/beast Gi-Kwang was so hot!?!?! I did a Facebook test (yes I know.. I was bored..) about who will be my Korean husband and I got Gi-Kwang. I asked the others who he was (I can't remember names in Swedish, more less Korean names!) and Googled his picture and O M G....

*Droool* I mean.. Wow... Wow.... Wow... I'm out of words! haha! I WILL MARRY HIM! haha! In my dreams.... But... Wow!

Ju suis désolé.... (^///^,)

Batoost.... Je t´aime! <3

I think I'm getting French to stick! haha! I started packing my bag today but got a brain-block! What should I bring? Clothes.. What clothes? What else? Don't know.... Money, passport and stuff like that will get packed the day before! I made a list before, but now I can't find it...

Gotta go!

Bye~
Annyeong~

Almost there!!

2012-02-02T11:34:00.000+01:00

I just applied for a new 5 week course! Religion this time! After that I will be granted study money! It feels so good!!! I won't be trapped in some system any more. But I'm thankful that they gave me this chance! I was a special case. <3
And I called the head of the kindergarten where Tindra goes, but she didn't answer, so I nervously left a message on the answering machine... I hate doing that. But Now I have called and shown my interest and I hope she calls back and gives me the job! Keep your fingers crossed!

Yesterday my dad came over with the bag I'm borrowing for Paris! I miss him... I wanted him to stay for a bit, but he had to leave he said... Anyways.... I'm packing today! Just to see how much it will weigh! I just don't know what to pack... Jeans? Or will I have the ones I will have on? Pantyhose! Socks, pantsu, towel, sweatshirt? I don't know! I hate packing cuz I always over-do it! Cuz I don't know what mood I will be in and I dress after mood... And it would be nice to have shoes with no holes in them! haha!

AAHH! Only 6 days left!!!

I'm so exited! And the people I'm going with are awesome people so this will be an amazingly awesome experience!! And I will not.. I repeat: NOT have my cellphone on! When I get on the the plane at Skavsta airport I will turn it of and when I get back to Skavsta airport i will torn it on! No calls what so ever! Ofc I will leave Liss number to mum if there is an emergency! If Liss agrees! haha! Or maybe someone else does! Anyway...
It's really cold today! Tomorrow we will stay at home and have a slow day, I will clean and wash clothes and Tindra will make a mess after I clean! ; )
As usual!

Time to do absolutely nothing for a while!!

Bye~
Annyeong~

DONE!!

2012-02-01T13:52:00.000+01:00

I just handed in my essay!! Yeay! I have spent this whole day, or morning, writing and arguing with myself about what webpages are reliable sources and not and why I can't find the right information on the right pages! Haha! But I'm finally done! And I have a terrible pain in my shoulder and arm... I'm so tensed I pull my shoulder up to about where my ear is. I took a painkiller to be able to write, but I'm still tensed! I want to put a 40 kg weight on my shoulder or something to keep it down! haha!

Now I have to eat before I go get princess in kindergarten! I have two hours spare time! IMMORTAL SONG 2 !! ; )

Uh, I feel dizzy...

Bai!

Bunnies Are Puffy?

2012-01-31T15:28:00.001+01:00

This thing about technological stuff... It's supposed to make life easy right? Not to me.. It took me about 1,5 hours yesterday to get all my songs onto the iPod I have borrowed until I can afford to buy my own MP3 player! 1,5 hours!!! Complicating things... But now I have lost of songs to listen to when I'm going! Me and Jossan will be the ones dancing in the middle of the night at the station! haha! I just wish I had some big (Small, really...) speakers so all of the homeless people trying to sleep there can wake up and dance with us! haha! I will be so hyped up and speeded on both caffeine, red bull and maybe some "happy hormones" and adrenaline, I think I will make a total fool out of my self many times that night! haha! But it will be worth it!!!

Only a week left! <3

have you heard the new debuting band B.A.P by the way? They released a video and song called "Warrior" and O M G I like it! They seem like they have been doing this all their life, so confident and cocky! And a rapper who really is comparable to my dear old T.O.P!!

Waaaarrior!!! *HUH*

The youngest of them is born in 1996! I feel so terrible old... haha! But I really like both the song, the dancing and yes they are cute ofc! But most of all I like the rapping!! Yes I like rap sometimes.. haha! Not bad for a trainee band right? I was super impressed when I heard this was their debut!! I really think I will follow their progress. I like them! : )

Gotta go get my princess now! My shoulder hurt like hell, have to stop sleeping with my arms stretching upwards... *Ouch...*

Bai~
Annyeong~

Defrost time!

2012-01-31T11:08:00.000+01:00

I'm sitting at home trying to defrost with hot drinks, the heater on full and a blanket. Yes I hate winter and I hate cold! But then I found something that warmed up my heart!
As you know I'm watching Immortal song 2, it's on YouTube for those who want to see it! And this time the the legend is the rocking band Boohwal/ Booh-Wal/Buhwal (Not sure about the spelling) who debuted in 1986! And I thought "Oh he has a great voice" so I looked them up on YouTube and I fell in love! Not only do they have great songs, power ballads and classic rock, but the new singer (Dongha) is SO HOT!!! His cheeks and his smile just melted my heart! I have always been week for rockers so.. haha!
Korean + leather pants + a nice husky voice + rock/power ballads = Super duper lova! haha!

Just take a look for yourself!

Admit it.. You're melting or at least smiling a bit right? ; ) Riiiight?

Now I can write my essay with a smile on my face! Maybe I can down... I mean "rent" some of their songs. I really wish I had the money to buy all the CD's I wanted to! But then I need to buy a CD-player too, cuz mine is broken.... And I have no money.... * Cries*

Well, there is only 8 days (Or 7 days if Liss and I are counting) until PARIS! And then I have to start saving money for the next trip! Wish will be in about 2015 haha!

Now time to study!

Bai~
Annyeong ~

A million roses..

2012-01-27T00:13:00.000+01:00

I absolutely L O V E Jonghyun singing "A million roses", a Russian folk-song in bottom. His voice fits the song so well, and you can really feel the emotions trough his voice, like it was him who was that sad man with the million roses for his lover~ Aahh~ I'm raping the repeat button! Haha~ Such a beautiful song.

Do you remember the lady I was talking about in the last post? Shim SuBong, she sang this too! But to tell the truth.. She was good, but Jonghyun did it better!

But she has a really beautiful voice that grabs a hold of you. Like chocolate for your ears! :D

Only 13 days left! Or 12 since it's late now! Then I will be the happiest girl on earth! At least for a few days. I'm spamming SHINee music and videos. I really need a better MP3 player to get more room for all the awesome songs I have on my playlist! Not only SHINee!

WOW it's late!!

Bye~
Annyeong~

Shim Su Bong

2012-01-24T23:12:00.000+01:00

After I started watching "Immortal Song 2" where different pop-stars are competing against teach other singing old classical songs, I really became a fan of Shim Su Bong! She debuted in 1987 and have through the years become some what of a legend. I really like he voice and her songs are so beautiful and SHE is really beautiful! <3

Just listen to her! I really enjoy her songs! :D

Miane... But here it is!!

2012-01-23T10:17:00.000+01:00

Sorry guise.... I know.. I'm a bad blogger! But the last week have been so full of stuff and tiring I haven't been able to blog. I have been so tired in the evenings from working, studying and being a mom... I didn't even see the movie I was supposed to review until yesterday!
So here it comes:

"Nineteen/19"

It's about three teenagers in the age of nineteen, their friend is found dead and they all become suspects. When questioned at the police station they all run away. Even thou they don't know each other they run together from the police, trying to find out what happened to their friend. Blamed of a crime they didn't commit they run while trying to find the real killer.

I think the story was good, but they could have made it more action filled and with more drama. It was kind of plane. But I liked it, the way the teenagers was treated and thought of is most like the reality. It shows that not all teenagers are bad, no matter the background. The ending could have been more... Hmm.. It was like a 4 min ending, it all happened so fast and wasn't exiting at all. I would give this a 3 out of 5 I think, just because of the ending.

Did I forget to mention that Seungri was also playing a role in this? I think I did! But he did a great acting job, the best of them according to me! Really impressed! He somehow fit in the role as the good looking nerd! ; )

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Do you know, there is only 15 days left before we go to Paris! Not counting today! I'm getting a bit nervous. And I have a really bad cold... I HAVE to get well before we go! I can't scream and cry with a soar throat! haha! Right now it feels like my head is about to explode, or like it's filled with concrete! And you know the sound an elephant makes? That's how I sound when I cough! ke ke ke! ^_^
Anyway, every time a song of any of the artists performing in Music Bank is coming up on the music player I get all psyched up, teary and happy! CAN'T WAIT!

Well now it's time for some studying! Ancient Rome and Athens female oppression consent, homosexuality, democracy and immigration - here I come!!

Bye~
Annyeong~

My weekend was...

2012-01-15T20:29:00.001+01:00

...A relaxing weekend! Friday I had company from my best friend T and another friend, C. We had some wine and played "spin the bottle" and talked crap. It was really nice, even thou I wished I had eaten something before... Felt sick in the morning after, but a really big breakfast made it better! And Saturday I didn't look at the clock even once! It was sooooo relaxing! I played games, had pizza and watched videos on YouTube and movies! Not a care in the world. But I couldn't resist making a call to say hello to Tindra. She was crying and said she was missing me... My heart went *POP* and totally broke... My sweet princess. She knows how to make mum happy! I still think she had a good time at her dad. And I had a good time at home, alone.

I watched "Itaewon murder case" yesterday, with Jang Guen Suk, Song Joong Ki and Shin Seung Hwan in the lead. It was interesting enough to watch, but not a movie I would recommend to my "non-Asian/drama-loving-friends". Haha! But it was good!
Synopsis:
A college student, Jong-pil Jo, gets into an argument with some youths at fast food restaurant in Itaewon, South Korea. The boy is later found stabbed to death in the restroom of the restaurant. Two Korean-Americans, Pearson and Alex, are known to have gone into the bathroom after Jong-pil Jo and become prime suspects. The prosecution must now determine which of the two committed the crime.

Text from: My Soju.

Today I'm going to watch "19/Nineteen" With Choi Seung Hyun/T.O.P. I have no real hopes from this movie after seeing both "Iris the movie" fail and "Iteawon murder case" lackluster action and spectacle. But Choi Seung Hyun is really a good actor, even thou this movie was made in 2009, one year before his extraordinary acting in "71: into the fire", witch I totally loved and highly recommend (Everyone!). Hmm.. Maybe it will be good!
We'll have to see tomorrow, then I'll tell you! ^_^

Tindra is getting ready for bed, a bit late...

Bye~

Annyeong~

Boo beep!

2012-01-12T12:18:00.000+01:00

I was supposed to clean the apartment today.. But my mood and my body says: "NO! Wait till tomorrow...." I have been running in the rain to the pharmacy to get some elastic, self-sticking bandage and iodine to my stupid cat. I have been talking with the vet and she said I could wait and see if it gets better with that and if not, I have to come to get it checked up... Bye bye eating and drinking in Paris.... And I tried to ensure the cats, but I wasn't allowed to! Don't know why, and I don't want to have two insurance companies. I have to call and ask why I can't...

Edit: Talked to the insurance company and Ceacar is to old, but Tarzan, the one I really needed to insure, could be insured. But since he is a mix-breed it was something special... They are to call me up in about an hour!

I have some strange number calling me all the time! I looked it up, and it's not listed in the "yellow pages" and when I Googled it people had said it was some kind of insurance company and/or someone trying to sell stuff. I believe it's someone trying to fraud people. I doesn't answer. Maybe I can block the number in some way... Especially if they are going to call every day! They called yesterday and 3 minutes ago. Same time as yesterday!

Tomorrow it's Friday 13!! My lucky day! 7 and 13 are my lucky numbers. Funny huh? I want to go visit my dad. Wonder if he have time for me. I should go to P too, but I feel like being alone and at the same time not! I think I have to take out some frustration, maybe go clubbing or something? I'm not that kind of person who goes out partying often, but sometimes you really need to let go of some steam... Dance until you sweat like hell and then go home! haha! I could do that at home to, but it's not as much fun! We'll see, we'll see....

Have to get ready, having coffee with Jessica today, in the rain! haha! And My hair is a mess, after running in the rain. And I have yesterdays makeup on still....

Bye~

Annyeong~

27 days...

2012-01-11T23:25:00.000+01:00

..Not counting today! ^_^

We have been talking on Skype, the whole group that's going, about packing, airlines, bombs, mines, panties and shoes! All connected to the trip to Paris! ke ke! I e-mailed the hostel and asked if check in is possible at an earlier time because we will arrive in the morning, leave our stuff and then go to stand in line. Maybe have something to eat and rest a bit too. I hope it will be OK!
It feels more real now. Before it seemed like a dream, I was numb, no feeling about it at all. Now I'm nervous, exited, anxious and happy at the same time! WE ARE GOING TO PARIS! And after these last weeks, it will be nice with some vacation!!

Work is going fine too! All the kids like me and I like them too! A very harmonious group of children. It's nice to be working there. I will be working 4 days next week. Short hours, but it's OK. It's better than nothing and I have time for studies too, that started today! I wish I had known they have changed the "hand-in-web-page" because the I would have gone to the introduction and learnt about it... It looks completely different! Well, it's not that hard really, I just have to look for some stuff. I will make it!

Right now I'm fangirling SHINee videos on YouTube! I just love the way they make fun of each other! haha! It's a bit cute! ^_^

Well, it's getting late and I have to finish my fangirling and go to bed! Tomorrow is study time! Well.. I have to make a presentation of my self and hand in... ; )

Bye~
Annyeong~

30 days left!!

2012-01-09T17:26:00.001+01:00

One more month and I will be the happiest girl on this planet! Yeay~ ke ke ke!
Today I got my passport photo taken. And.. Well... When I stood there, trying to look cute, I thought about the trip, the concert and all the fangirling and started smiling stupidly! haha!

My skills in Paint... I rule! haha! But this is just about how I looked! Ah and yes, that's how my hair looks... haha! I will get it in about a week.

Ah! Today was my first day at my new workplace! It went well. The day was short, only 3,5 hours. But tomorrow will be longer and the day after tomorrow even longer! And I get to continue for at least 3 weeks after this, and (this sound mean, but hey.. A girl gotta do what a girl gotta do!) let's hope someone get sick and I have to fill in some more! ;-)
And on Wednesday my study starts! It's all going well!
But still I feel like I'm going for execution.... I don't feel well.... There is stuff I need to do, but can't because things are holding me back.... Frustrating! Maybe some day... I hope I will feel better soon, till' that day!
Like an Angel in chains.... That's how I feel!

Thank (insert religion of choice here!) for chocolate!!

It's time for dinner now, I gotta go!

Bye~
Annyeong~

From Liss' blog!

2012-01-06T11:56:00.000+01:00

I just heard that a girl in Sweden have been talking to the Korean embassy, in Sweden. The man she talked to, were very positive and said some good news. If they manage to fill Ericsson Globe Arena (Globen) in Stockholm, the embassy will try to get k-pop band(s) and make a concert or two.

So, lets try to help out! If you by any chance would travel and see a k-pop concert in Sweden, then just click the link and follow the instructions. Simple as that. This would help with the awareness of k-pop fans in mainly Europe. But I think it helps overall, to see how many we are - that wants this! Lets try to be positive ourselves, and make things worth.

Click here to sign

When you're done, click the "skicka" button, to send it in.

Thank You!

Music Bank Trailer!

2012-01-06T11:52:00.000+01:00

One of the girls going with us to Music Bank shared this video found on dkpopnews.net. A trailer video for Music Bank Paris 2012, whit footage from last years success! I almost cried! :D

I', SO looking forward to this! For several reasons actually. I get to meet friends with the same kind of interests and taste in music, I get to see Paris and go on a mini vacation (witch is badly needed!!) and I get to see all the K-pop idols!! I think Sistar is the only one of them I don't really listen to... Maybe I need to down.. I mean, "rent" some of their songs too! Just have to get my computer to work properly...

The last 3-4 days my computer have been very slow at streaming videos and the last 2 days even loading images and web pages. I have done all I know to make the computer run faster, but way passed midnight me, P and a friend was thinking it was some disturbance in the internet connection. So my friend is coming over soon, I hope.
It's hard to stream dramas when it's all... Gaah! But I got to see one episode yesterday.

There is so much I need to do today! But it's closed everywhere... It's some kind of special day today apparently... Since I'm not a Christian I don't keep track of all the the days where something happened to Jesus or God or something.... I just know when Christmas is! And midsummer, but that's not a Christian thing, right? And New years eve! Oh dear, 3... Well, we have many birthdays to celebrate in the family! haha!

Now I'm blabbering.... Gotta go!

Bye~

Jeongmal haengbog haeyo!

2012-01-05T12:07:00.001+01:00

I'm so happy!
These last few days I haven't bothered to update since I have been kinda blue... And I didn't want to depress anyone else! haha! But I feel really much better now after crying in bed the other day, due to lack of sleep and other things, after crying out for my dead grandfather to come an give me support and company. It was awesome, because when I did, I felt like someone (Maybe grandpa?) put a hand on my cheek and I felt a comfort coming over me like a big warm blanket. Those who do not believe in ghosts, do you believe in God or something? To me it's kind of the same comfort. But anyway, since that night I have become more happy and this morning I woke up with a headache and Tindra was whining about nothing and I felt this day was going to be terrible. But then my phone called and it was someone asking if I could vicar a few weeks at a kindergarten!!! I get to work! And the best thing is I can study at the same time! it's not many hours of work, but its work! And I who was worried about finding something to finance my studies! So relieved...

Tomorrow P is coming here and I was thinking about having a Korean evening, with Bulgogi, Kimchi and Eggrolls! I just hope it's not too spicy for Tindra...

Today... I don't know.... Maybe go to the police station and get my passport done, but my head is saying no... Really no! I hope it will get better soon.... One more episode of "Boys before flowers" and then get ready!

Next week work starts and I will work until the day I leave for Paris! I guess I have to enjoy my last days of "vacation" hehe! And I'm taking up the Korean language again. It got put aside for a while, but I feel like I want to pick it up again. It's interesting to watch a Korean drama and every time I hear something I recognize, a word or a sentence, I get so happy! haha! Like a child getting candy! ;-)

Bye~

Ōji-sama... Chickenpox attack!

2012-01-01T22:03:00.001+01:00

Teri doesn't feel like a Hime (Princess) anymore... Teri feels like a Ōji-sama... A Prince.... I don't feel feminine any longer, with my new haircut. And sure, I'm a bit boy-isch sometimes, but I don't want to be a boy! I want to be a girl! A girl with boy-isch features. Yesterday when I was getting ready for New Years dinner at my mother, I was putting on makeup and false eyelashes and when I looked at the person in the mirror, I looked at a transvestite! Yes I looked like a man dressing up as a woman.... And I tried putting on my wig, but it looked fake. I like being fake, when I'm in the mood for role-playing. But yesterday I wanted to be me, I wanted to be nice, good looking and pretty. I had a dress in mind, but it didn't fit with this style.... I managed to get my hair in a "rock-chick way" but that's not what I wanted.
It might seem like a tiny thing to you.... But I have always pretended to be someone else... Until now! Now I want to be me... And I don't look like this... This is not me.... To me it's a big deal! I wanted a nice feminine short haircut... Not a boy-isch looking one.... I keep tearing up about it. I hate it!

But still the evening was nice. The fireworkd were nice and pretty and lots of Chineese lanterns were up in the air. I liked them the most. And we were standing beside the Ming-family, those Chinese people really know their firework! It was beautiful!
I felt sorry for Tindra who is in allot of pain due to her smallpox.... She doesn't have allot of them, not as many as I have seen on the Google pictures that scared me to death.. Poor children! But she seems to be in allot of pain. This morning I had to call and get her some medicine because talcum powder and ointment doesn't work at all it seems. But she is healing quite fast! The first poxes she got is already becoming scabs! In only 3 days! And she's saying it's itching now. That mean it's healing, right? I hope she get well soon, so both of us can sleep... I miss sleep... About 6-7 hours in 48 hours is all we got!

Tomorrow I have to style my black "Black Butler-wig" so I can vary with the long brown one and the short black one! I want to buy more, but that have to wait, I think.... Oh dear I'm going to see SHINee looking like a fan-BOY... t__t *Crying* Donate wigs please!!

Oh well, back to watch "Boys before flowers". I really like the Korean version!

Bye~

Bad day.....

2011-12-30T16:58:00.000+01:00

Today is not a good day! This night I woke up by hitting my eyebrow against the sharp edge of the radiator! OUCH!! It still hurts.... And I have mouth sores that hurts like hell and looks ugly, nasty and yucky... And yesterday I cut my hair at the hairdresser! It looked good then, but then I washed my hair and it "fell in place" sort of say.... I hate it... Too short... I feel really ugly today and I'm hurting in my face.. I will look really pretty tomorrow on new years eve... All bruised and with blisters on my lip...
Beauty and the beast, where P is the Beauty and I'm the beast! haha!

And Tindra have gotten chickenpox! But she is still running around like crazy with the neighbors kid! She doesn't have that many smallpox yet and I hope she will only get a few. Those terrible pictures of those poor children I was looking at yesterday when reading about chickenpox... *Get chills* Poor poor children!!

And now my coffee is cold... Bad bad day!

Luckily P is coming tonight and I hope my mood will get better then.

I have started watching "Boys before flowers", Korean version! I gave up on Ikemen.... And I like it quite good after just the first episode! But is that really Lee Min Ho? He looks so ugly! haha! But I suppose that's the point?
I wanted to see Personal Preference too, but in the end it became Boys before flowers since I really liked the Japanese one! And Kim Hyun Joong is relly good looking! ^_^ ke ke ke...

I have to end this now, Tindra is hysterical... Mom was nagging about me being hysterical ONCE, she was lucky! Tindra is hysterical ONCE A DAY!! Crying until she cant breath and when I can't hear her, because she sounds like: "woauw woauw woauw woauw" when she is trying to talk, and when I'm asking her to calm down before she speaks, she gets even more hysterical.....
Waiting for her to calm down now.....

Bye....

ShaWol

2011-12-28T11:36:00.000+01:00

Oh dear, I have a problem... I'm addicted... To SHINee! Yes I admit, I can't stop looking at YouTube clips... SHINee and Cat videos destroy my life! haha!
That reminds me. Have you seen this one? I totally cry my eyes out of laughter when I see this!

Hilarious! Hahahahaha!

Today my princess is going to her father in the middle of the week, to get late Christmas presents and spend the night. She won't be back until tomorrow night. I will be all alone..... That means: DRAMA!!!! I just have to find one that won't take too long to finish. Suggestions?

Bye~

Happy Holidays!

2011-12-27T13:17:00.000+01:00

Amber really is the hottest girl ever!

X-mas Love!

2011-12-27T12:37:00.000+01:00

♥ I really had a Merry Christmas and I hope you all had one too! ♥
It started with Christmas breakfast at my mother, then we went to her mother in law, Bo's mother. And there a Santa came and gave presents to Tindra! She was thrilled! After that we went to my uncle and had Christmas dinner with the rest of the relatives from my mother's side. After dinner we shared gifts. Tindra got allot of stuff and she was so happy! I got money who I'll save for the Paris trip and a frying pan! Just what I wanted!
Later on I went to P's parents house and came right in the middle of the gift sharing. I also got some gifts too, plenty more that I could ask for, but I'm very grateful! They were very nice presents!

Spending Christmas with P and his family was really nice. And the morning after I woke up really happy. Had morning coffee with his mother and sister while all the men were sleeping... ; ) Had some time to cuddle with baby Alva too! Such a sweet baby girl! <3

In the afternoon we went home to my place. Picked up Tindra on the way, and all the gifts. And P stayed here until this morning when he had to go to work. He will be back on Friday to spend new years eve with us. Me, Tindra, Mother, step-dad Bo and maybe some one else.
I really like having him around, makes me feel safe and happy! :D

Today... I don't know what to do today. Maybe clean the apartment, both from stuff and bad memories. I feel there is something hanging around here making us all depressed and I have to find a way to clear the place from this!

Got to get going.....

Bye~

Music Bank cancelled on the 9th!!

2011-12-23T11:36:00.000+01:00

Sitting here shaking.... Just found out that date we are seeing the Music Bank show in Paris, the 9th, is cancelled... They day we were going to see all the bands....
If we can't get a ticket on the 8th we are still going to Paris, sitting outside, crying... haha! Having a mini vacation since the hostel is booked and the plain tickets are bought and we can't get our money back on that!

If my spelling is bad it's cuz I'm shaking terrible and feeling a bit dizzy.... I don't like talking on the phone with strangers and absolutely not strangers who doesn't speak English! There was one man who could thou! Yes I called the Ticket service in France and tried to change the tickets, but they couldn't.. So he cancelled our ticket and we are trying to get an new one on the 8th!

And now Liss is saying: WE GOT THE TICKETS! Same place but on the 8th instead! Just hope we can get to the hostel in time before the show! But I don't think there will be any problems.

X-mas is saved! haha! I thought I would be crying until February! But we would still go as I said! And now we will have 3 days exploring Paris!

Don't mess with fangirls!!!

I'm a good girl!

2011-12-22T15:00:00.000+01:00

This Thursday I spent with some of my course classmates in Stockholm to look at the Christmas market. It was OK.. Not that much to see... But I did some good deeds and that felt good! I donated money to the city Commission, bought a very expensive coffee at their cafe and I gave a homeless man some money. I didn't buy anything beside lunch. Though I found a really nice red jacket and a cool leopard patterned handbag! :D

Today was the last day at the course and I wasn't that nice of a ending, but we got our goodbyes and some nice words. Then I went to have my book report and I talked allot about the book I had read, "Good night Mr. Tom" straight from my head and I think she was a bit impressed! All I have to do now is hand in a paper about it, but since today was the last day and since I have such good grades I didn't have to hurry, she was setting the grades in January anyway! I think I will get at least a C+ or a B- (VG in Swedish)

There is something wrong with my voice, my vocal cords.... There is 2 notes I just can't sing that I used to do perfect. That mean I can't sing my favorite ballads. The notes just break or I just hiss... I'm really sad.. And high notes make my throat thicken... Even if I warm up! Why is this? :'(

Today Tindra and I will put up the X-mas tree! My dear mother have bought a Christmas tree stand for us! I have to put on some SHINee x-mas songs to get in Christmas spirit! ;-)

I have to go pick up Tindra at kindergarten!

Bye~

My top 3 of 2011 - TV-shows/Dramas and Movies!

2011-12-16T20:12:00.000+01:00

So, to sum up this year I thought of making my own top 3 list of bands, people and movies/dramas seen during this year! This time: Dramas and Movies!

Top 3 Korean TV-shows:

1: Your'e beautiful

2: Mary stayed out all night

3: The 1st shop of coffee Prince

Go Mi Nyu is a sister-in-training. Her twin brother Go Mi Nam successfully auditions for the musical band A.N.JELL but is forced to leave for the United States to correct a botched plastic surgery. Mi Nyu is approached by Mi Nam's manager to pose as Mi Nam while he recovers. She is against it at first but agrees in order to fulfill her dream of finding their mother. Now, posing as Mi Nam, Mi Nyu enters the group A.N.JELL and meets its members: Hwang Tae Kyung, Kang Shin Woo and Jeremy.

This drama made me cry allot! I cried of sadness, happiness and of cuteness! Very worth watching!

Top 3 Japanese TV-shows:

1: Hana yori dango

2: Kimi wa petto

3: Hana Kimi

Makino Tsukushi is the only poor student at Eitoku Gakuen, the school of the ridiculously rich and privileged that is ruled by Flower 4 or F4, a group of four boys who come from extremely powerful families: Domyoji Tsukasa, the leader and heir of the Domyoji World Finance Group; Hanazawa Rui, the introverted son of a large company; Nishikado Sojiro, a player who is the heir of a tea ceremony school; and Mimasaka Akira, a madam killer with ties to the underground. If a student gets on the F4’s bad side, he/she gets a red notice and is bullied and driven out of school.

Makino hopes to pass her days quietly-- without drawing any attention to herself-- but one day, she stands up to Domyoji in defense of her friend. The next day, Makino gets the dreaded red notice. Even though she is harassed, Makino decides to keep going to school because she is a "tough weed". She declares war right back on the F4. Her resolve gets the attention of her crush Hanazawa Rui and oddly enough, rouses romantic feelings in her worst enemy, Domyoji Tsukasa.

What is there to say? You gotta love this drama!!

Top 3 Korean movies:

1: 71: into the fire

2: Baby and Me

3: .... (There is one who I forgot the name to!) .....

The film is based on a true story of a group of 71 undertrained and undergunned student-soldiers for South Korea during the Korean War, who were mostly killed on August 11, 1950, during the Battle of P'ohang-dong, while defending P'ohang-dong girls' middle school, a strategic point for safeguarding the Nakdong River, from an attack by overwhelming North Korean forces for 11 hours.

At first I only wanted to see this movie since T.O.P has the head lead, but this movie really grabbed a hold of me and I sat all night to watch this movie, crying my eyes out. T.O.P, or Choi Seng Hyun wich is his real name, is a really superb actor and makes the movie seem real, like you are there, he grabs a hold of you with his acting and does not need to pull the tears out of you. A strong movie!

Top 3 Japanese movies:

1: Azumi

2: One missed call (1)

3: Ringu

As in the manga, Jiji is tasked by the Tokugawa shogunate to raise a band of assassins. Their task is to finish off Toyotomi Hideyoshi's three allies: Nagamasa Asano, Kiyomasa Kato and Masayuki Sanada, to prevent an outbreak of the new civil war.

Azumi is discovered as a little girl kneeling without visible emotion next to the body of her dead mother by Gessai and his entourage of young students. She is then raised by him in the martial skills of sword fighting and the art of assassination. Azumi and her fellow classmates, now at young adult age, are constantly being told about a "mission" they must accomplish, though they have no idea what this mission is yet. Prior to setting out on their mission, their master orders his students to "pair up" with each others' best friend and proceed to kill each other, thus out of ten students only five will remain to proceed with the mission: Azumi pairs with and this is forced to kill Nachi, played by Shun Oguri. More questions and internal conflicts begin to arise amongst Azumi and her comrades as it seems their mission even prevents them from saving a village of mostly women and children from being massacred at the hands of a group of bandits, as they need to keep a low profile in order to achieve their primary mission.

I really like Japanese action, fighting and terror! Yes I like it even more than love filled dramas. That's why, even thou I didn't see this movie in 2011 but earlier, that I want to put this movie here! OK, I admit, I haven't seen one single Japanese movie this year... So....

But since the very first time I saw Azumi I was in love! A powerful girl with her sword, fighting a thousand men. She impressed med and I fell for her from the very start of the movie. This one I have seen 3 times!

Top 3 female actors:

1: Nam Gyu Ri

2: Yoon Eun Hye

3: Inoue Mao

It is really hard for me to like the girls in most of the dramas/TV-shows or movies, so this list was really hard! But I really like the way Nam Gyu Ri acted in the TV-drama 49 Days, with passion, love and a bit of playfulness. She is not only really cute, but she knows how to make feelings come to live.

Top 3 male actors:

1: Jang Geun Suk

2: T.O.P/Choi Seng Hyun

3: Lee Byung Hun

All of my nerdy friends know I really like Geun Suk. Not only is he really really really cute~ But he is a really good actor and the movies and dramas I have seen with him starring, there is no doubt he is one the better actors in Korea and even Japan! He plays many roles as a musician since music is his biggest passion. He speaks both Korean and Japanese fluent.

♥♥♥

I feel bad about not being able to see more! I would like to have the evenings free to watch dramas and movies, like I used to... There is so much I want to see and so little time. But the ones I have seen is really good. Now I have to watch "Ikeme desu ne", the Japanese version of "you're beautiful" so.. I gotta go~

Iris.

2011-12-16T18:35:00.000+01:00

Iris - The movie.
Such a disappointment... If this was the first time ever hearing of Iris and seeing the movie, I wouldn't understand a thing about the story. It was really bits and pieces from the drama cut together into a hard to follow movie. The only difference was the ending, about 2 or 3 minutes different from the drama ending. I was fast forwarding half the movie. Witch is really sad, cuz I really loved the drama! I had expected some kind of difference from the drama, like; the same story but still different. Not just clips cut together.... Really bad one Taewon Entertainment!!

My top 3 of 2011 - Music!

2011-12-14T22:25:00.000+01:00

So, to sum up this year I thought of making my own top 3 list of bands, people and movies/dramas seen during this year! Starting with the MUSIC!

Top 3 Male Solo Artist:

1: G. Dragon

2: Tablo

3: Jang Geun Suk

G.D is of course the favorite in this since he has a lovely voice, he's a good rapper and he is kind'a cute! Ok, he's very cute (Sorry Liss!) But most of all he is a great artist and an amazing entertainer. He makes every video and song with such a passion you can feel it in your bones! Good work G.D!

Top 3 Female Solo Artist:

1: Park Bom

2: G.Na

3: IU

Park Bom, the main vocalist of the group 2NE1 has the most amazing voice and her music videos is full of life, energetic and wow she's pretty! Even thou she hasn't made many solo songs I really felt she would be first place just because she has this fantastic voice. Keep on singing Bom!

Top 3 Boy Band:

1: Big Bang

2: SHINee

3: U-kiss

There are so many more I want to put on the list!! But I can only choose three and Big Bang got the first. There is no surprise that Big Bang is my favorite boy band, but SHINee is pretty darn close that first place too! I really would like to put them both there.. But I can't... So, Big Bang got the first since they are advancing as a group and are now back with their comeback touring, stronger than ever! I really hope this group goes on forever. They are the most entertaining, creative and strongest group of this year. Good fighting Big bang!

Top 3 Girl Bands:

1: 2NE1

2: Girls Generation

3: f(x)

Oh dear sweet 2NE1. They are awesome, hardcore and at the same time sexy and cute. How many can pull that off? They make powerful rock inspired songs and nice ballads that really caches on and stick! Just ask my daughter and my boyfriend!!! And they are all very cute and talented! Really nice 2NE1!

Top 3 Songs:

1: Big Bang - My Heaven

2: SHINee - Lucifer

3:Bea2t - Fiction

BigBang-My Heaven

This one really stuck to me and makes me all emotional since I have so many memories to this song. It's been with me all year, from beginning ti'll the end and I still love every single word of it, even if I really don't get them, and it's in Japanese. But I really love this song! "Kimi dake ga my heaven"

Top 3 New Songs of 2011:

1: Tablo - Bad

2: MyName - Message

3: Brown Eyed Girls - Sixth Sense

Tablo-Bad

I just recently heard of Tablo, but when I heard his songs I really fell like a... Like a fan-girl! Such an amazing rapper with a deep sexy voice and good lyrics. Just listen and you'll understand! And you should also go find MyName on YouTube! It's a good song, with a kind'a weird video.. I like it!

♥♥♥

This year have really been eyeopening to me in the K-pop division. At first I was a bit insecure, I had one or two favorites and I stuck to them. But since I found great friends with the same taste of music I really found more and more about K-pop, not just the music or the videos or the really, really, really hot guiz... (Sorry love, you are really hot too! <3 ) It's about passion, dedication, friendship, sticking together, fighting for what you love. Ahh writing this brings tears to my eyes... haha! And now I get to see my idols LIVE!! How awesome isn't that? This has really been an awesome music year! And with Big Bang winning the MTV EMA too! Super Awesome!

More top 3 is coming up soon!

Saengil chukha hamnida!!

2011-12-14T19:08:00.001+01:00

♥ Saengil chukha hamnida, dongsaeng-a Lee Jinki! ♥

Leader Onew is turning 22 years old today! *Yeay, hurray*
Happy birthday to you Onew dongsaeng-a~
Dangsin-eul salang haeyo! ^_~

Today I was looking at live shows of the bands performing at Music Bank at lunch. And OMG I'm going to cry so so so much!! Just watching the videos made me all teary and happy! Just thinking about it makes me all teary and happy! haha! Good thing I have waterproof make-up! I don't understand how the girls in the audience can stand there looking at U-kiss, SHINee och Bea2t and NOT CRY!! How do they do? (If you know, please share!!) I hope we get to stand fairly close to the stage! Not too close cuz then you will get a stiff neck! And the will see you fainting and crying your eyes out! ; ) haha!

But I'm a bit worried about the economics... I can afford the hostel, the buses and maybe my passport (I will need a passport or everything else was in vain!) I have to hope for some money for x-mas! *Santa, please?*

And I promised some pictures from Lucia!

It was hard to take good pictures in the dark and she never stays still! But these is the best ones. They were all very good and cute when they sang and looked soooo pretty in their glitters and lights and ribbons! You could see that they had practiced as much as Tindra said. "I have practiced and practiced until I got maaaad!" haha! <3

Today I took some pictures of the sunset too! Here is one!

I love this snow-less winter! Between -3 to +5 is perfect. I LOVE IT!!

I have to go, hope you enjoyed this!!

Bye~

My bad.....

2011-12-13T22:13:00.000+01:00

Haha apparently it was my mistake, I read 1000 when it was 100.. Me and numbers... P's money that is!

Today was Lucia at Tindras' kindergarten! She was so pretty!! With glitter in her hair and round her waist! I promise pictures tomorrow. I don't have the energy now... I'm going to bed!

Bye~

2011-12-12T14:19:00.000+01:00

Last night P came home! Finally! And he told me about his trip. Seems like he had a good time! And it wasn't 1000 Euro, it was 1000 Sek he lost! * Phew* 100 Euro that is!
It was really nice to talk to him again!

Today is my fifth day with really bad headache.. Not fun at all.. No painkillers seem to work and I don't want to take any stronger pills... And I can't find my migraine medicine.... And the pain makes me irritated and kind of aggressive. And Tindra feels it too and when we argue, witch we have done allot this weekend, I get so frustrated and angry and I feel sorry for Tindra. I want this pain to go away! I have had constant pain but in different places for about 2 weeks, maybe more, now! First my hip/leg/back, now my head... Why? Why can't I just be without pain for one day? ONE DAY! Please?

Tomorrow it's Swedish tradition Lucia! Tindra is celebrating at her kindergarten and my mother will come to watch too! The kids have made gingerbread cookies and saffron buns that all the parents and kids gets to eat. I love these kind of events, to see the kids sing songs they have practiced and proudly present in front of all parents and relatives! So Sweet! <3 And Lucia is very beautiful with all the lights and glitter!

Today I have to make some homework, read my book and clean some....
And I was going to see "Iris - the movie" but it didn't work, so I have to get another one and it was so hard to find!! *Cries* I'm not a technical person.. haha!

And take a bath! Yes, that I will do!

Bye~

Thieves....

2011-12-10T22:48:00.000+01:00

I don't like this anymore... P sent a text message saying he lost his wallet (And got it back) and lost 1000 Euro!!! That's about 9550 Sek! I wan't him to come home now... But he'll be back tomorrow I think... My poor sweet man... Getting struck by bad luck and thieves when abroad is never fun! I hope he will get his money back somehow... Just before Christmas and all...

COME ON HOME DARLING!

I really miss you too....

Game girl nerd plans (I'm not a game girl.. :'( .)

2011-12-10T13:00:00.000+01:00

I found this amazing girl playing violin, the Zelda theme! AWESOME!
Ever since the very first Zelda game Link have been my hero (Together with Super Mario and my grandfather!) and even if I haven't played every single game (even thou I would like to!) I get really happy every time a new game is released cuz then the "new generation" get to meet my hero! :-) And I really hope he becomes someone else's hero too!

Anyways, this girl is awesome!

I was thinking of a Link cosplay for next UppCon before, end this made me want it even more! But... I don't know if I can afford... I wanted Rikku too, but I cant afford her... And I want Lucy too... And I have my Misa-Maid cosplay... I sold my Sebastian.... gaah we'll have too see after February Music Bank in Paris how much I can afford. The tickets to UppCon have increased in price... And I do NOT want to sleep in a gymnasium floor, so I have to book a hotel room or a hostel! It's allot of money just there!

Maybe the blue one? Link that is! It looks very nice! It can be sewed easily? Right? Just a tunic, a hat, some long-johns/tights, a belt attached to a bow-arrow-thingy, a bow and an ocarina! Oh and I will need a blonde wig and green circle lenses! That will cost allot.... haha! But hey, if you like something.... And ofc I need a Navi following me! ;-) *Making plans*

Gaaah I hate that all my hobbies are so expensive!!! Horses, cosplay, concerts! haha!

I have to clean up some at home now. Tindra is at a birthday party for a few hours and I have to get down town to get a x-mas present for my man! Who I miss really much! But he called yesterday, having a good time. "Only 22 degrees out, a bit chilly..." ~~Not bitter at all~~.... *Mumbles* <3

Bye~

Strange, emotional cocktail!

2011-12-08T22:14:00.000+01:00

This feels strange... P is with his work-buddies in GRAN CANARIES!! And I won't be able to speak to him until Sunday.... No talking for hours, no saying good night, no one to tell when I'm happy or sad, no one to send good-morning-texts too..... Maybe I can send texts, but who wants to be the "annoying girlfriend who always send messages and ruin the party"? Well, I guess I have to stand it! If I get too much abstinence I can always write to his sweet sister or why not call my mother! Or maybe a friend!
1st night out of 3! I'm really tired today (Fell asleep in the library today!) and I think I will be able to sleep tonight, but not as happily as I use to! ;-)

And I have to remember... Next time it's me going to Paris! 3 nights again!

And I have to say I have never felt this kind of strong, true love before and it really feels even more when things like this happen. I don't know how many times I have said "this is the one" ;-) But this time I really know what true love is! It's even comparable to the love I feel for my sweet dear lovely daughter Tindra! But I still love her a tiny bit more! hehe! Or maybe the same, but different kind of love!? Anyway, I love to love! :-D

My cold is better and I can happily say the pain in my hip is almost completely gone! But today my head hurts instead! haha! Always in pain in some way... Sometimes I hate my body! Ah and don't forget I'm a girl too! Yes, period pain... But still thinking positive!!

Today I learned a way to mix your own emotional cocktail! It was fun! So from now on when I feel down or insecure I know what to do to turn it around! And no, it has nothing to do with alcohol (unfortunately), just your 5 senses; hearing, sight, smell, feeling/touch, taste.
You associate a happy feeling, smell or a happy moment with a movement or something, and when you feel down, you simply does that movement and the brain associate that movement with that happy moment and send you the same feeling you got when this moment happened and you get happier! Simple as that!
Well it's maybe not that simple, but it works in some way and I like it! :-D

Aah I have to get something non alcoholic to drink ;-) and go to bed!

Bye~

Feel sorry for me please!

2011-12-07T09:16:00.001+01:00

I have a really bad cold! I sound something like between an old man and a robot today! haha! And today I have the "National test" in English... Oral test... Yeay....
And yesterday my teachers sent a mail, YESTERDAY, that I have do the book report too! AND... I can't choose any book, she have a list of books! And I can't go to the library cause I have a debt there I have to pay and I don't have any money.... I'm getting worried..... Maybe I can borrow someone else's library card!
I just have to tell her the truth.. I can give a book report of a trilogy TODAY if she want to, but I can't read any of "her" books right now....

Well I have to get Tindra ready, she is extremely slow in the mornings! A small breakfast takes her about an hour to get down. And I have to remind her every 5'Th minute to eat!
And I have to drink my tea and hoping I will get better.

Bye~

Change!

2011-12-05T18:08:00.000+01:00

I'm happy! Right? So why do I feel so empty?

The pain in my back and hip has gone over to muscle pain, probably from using my muscles in the wrong way, walking different from the pain and so on.. But it still hurts like hell... * Cries*

I was going to write about bullying after seeing this YouTube video about this boy... But I got drained out of energy and I think that whatever I have to say makes little difference.... Especially when people choose not to see and not to hear what is really going on in this world. It's like the global warming and extinction of some animals.. If it doesn't affect you directly it's non of your concern.... So what if some tigers die, it's not your tigers right?
Silly humans talking about being the smartest animal on this planet.. BULLSHIT! Oh I feel the energy coming back! ;-)
So.. Bullying someone so much that one person kills himself or hurt themselves.. How can that make you feel good? Do you feel like a great human being? Do you feel good about yourself? Can I as WHY you have to push someone to the edge and throw a rock at that person to make her/him jump? Do you feel bad about yourself? Are you angry? Who are you angry at? What makes you frustrated? WHO makes you frustrated?
Probably not the person you are bullying. That person never did anything to you. Am I right?

Why does things like this still exist? Who are we to blame in this? Me? You? Your parents? Grandfather? School? I don't know the answer.... Only you do.

Stop hating... Stop hating is the solution to all the problems int this world! It's a really easy thing to do! Just stop hating! I have been bullied, really bad, for about 6 years. But I don't hate those who did this to me, I have forgiven them. They made me the strong and independent girl I am today! I THANK THEM for what they have made me to! Actually, if I could go back I would do nothing different!!
I realized a few years ago that every time something goes against me in life, it's all me. I can't blame anyone else. Because if you think back... Really back, to where it started, it's always you...
I can't say it was my fault for them bullying me, but I could have stood up for my self, told teachers, my mother and so on.. But I didn't.
And it applies to all in life! Work, family, money... Everything!

Humans have a problem with thinking furter than their personal sphere. Thinking outside the box isn't jut just a saying, it's a thing you really should do! Think about the future, think about the past, don't just live for now!
Live tomorrow too....

This will probably make no difference, but if I can change one person in some way by this text I will be greatly happy! I bet most people don't even read all of this....
Well, their loss!

I have to go eat some food or I will start crying soon... And I miss P.. Really bad!! And I can't see him until x-mas.. If we can't meet in the weekdays/evening... Maybe I'll move there! Moahaha! I can't... :'(
Food...

Bye!

The best!

2011-11-30T11:23:00.000+01:00

I changed it! The design that is!

This morning I woke up with birds singing outside my window. This is the best winter ever!! No snow, no cold and no sickness! Well, except for the strange pain in my hip...

And I who wanted to learn the "ring ding dong" dance with SHINee... Found a great instruction video, in Japanese, but hey, I can see right? ;-) And the "Lucifer" dance too, but it was way to hard I think!!

But it would be nice to know at least the chorus part of the dance! I know at least the finger/hand/arm parts since I can only sit and dance! haha! They are so awesome and I admire the people who know the whole dance and many more! I would love to know how to dance, and not any Hip Hop, Street or African, I want to dance K-pop! Anyone know where I can learn k-pop dancing? ;-)

Wouldn't it be awesome standing in line with several thousands other k-pop fans and all doing the same dance, like maybe a flash mob or something, or just for fun! Oh I can't wait. Every time I think about it or hear a song of any of the artist who will perform, it brings tears of happiness to my eyes!

I'm so happy right now! I don't mind the pain. If I get to be this happy, I can have as much pain as my body can take! Ok maybe not. But being this happy, I don't mind! :-)

Now I have to take a painkiller and do some laundry...

Bye~

"Hello?"

2011-11-29T11:37:00.000+01:00

I want to change design on my blog... Hmm....

I have this mysterious pain in the left side of my hip/lower back and down my left leg, so I can't sit for long. Hurts like hell... Last night I had to get up and take painkillers just to be able to sleep... And I don't take painkillers in vain! I can take pain quite well (Even if I whine about it often, I want someone to feel sorry for me! haha!) I wonder if it's a nerve in a pinch somewhere or something....

Anyways, we stayed at home today since I cant walk... Or I can walk, but I don't want to... Wonder if I can get to mom tonight... I really want to cause I want to meet everyone. Maybe I can find some stronger painkillers! I think I have some morphine kind! haha!
But what I wanted to say was, we stayed at home, and woke up by the sound of someone unlocking my door and a "hello?" Two men came to put up radon meters in the apartment.... Nice waking up fully nude of two men entering the apartment!

Well, I have to lay down om the floor a bit... I don't know why the floor, it just feels right!

Bye~

Sixten Nordqvist, I miss you!

2011-11-27T21:28:00.000+01:00

I forgot, or I didn't forget, but didn't mention... Today is 4 years since our beloved grandfather passed away...

Today is a day when many people here shed tears and talk about good memories of this loving man. He was a special person who made everyone feel like his very own favorite, even thou everyone was his favorite, he made you feel special! He was always there when you needed him, big or small. He went away way to early....

This is a song I listened to allot when he had passed... I really really miss him.... We all do!

I still feel guilty for being such a lazy idiot and didn't come visit him when Tindra was born... He didn't get to meet her. He passed away 20 days after she was born. Even thou he told me in a dream, he had met her, I still feel guilty....

It's funny how it's always the best people who get taken away too early, the people most needed and the most loved ones... Why? Why is it like that? Unfair....

There is a puddle on my table right now.... haha! I know he wouldn't want me or anyone else to cry, not after 4 years! But what to do when the greatest person in the world is missing, from this world, but not from this heart.

November 2007.... The greatest and the worst month/year of my life!

Naega jeil jal naga!

2011-11-27T20:43:00.000+01:00

It's so cold at home! I miss being at P's place where it's warm and nice!

It's snowing.... I don't like snow! I hate snow! And I hate cold! And I hate people backtalk my "family" and the ones I love! This has been a rather braintwisting weekend.... I got to know stuff I didn't want to know, but I'm glad I found out cause I will make this persons life a living hell if it doesn't stop. You don't hurt the ones I love... You can say stuff to me and I just wave my hand at it... But say something to someone I love and you will die! Not physicality, but mentally....

Naega jeil jal naga! Bam Ratatata Tatatatata! Oh my god...

I have been looking at some Youtube clips of SHINee and OMG I can't wait! I wish it was February NOW! And I have come to this conclusion of the group: (Just for fun!)

Key: He is ether gay or totally in love with him self!
Jonghyn: Is in love with Key.

Taemin: Is everyones "love child".

Onew: Is the father of everyone.

Minho: Is just Monho...

Haha Tindra is in the bathroom singing Naega jeij jal nagal (but it sounds more like: negajej jalagal. *Cute*) cause I did... ;-)

Now I have to put her to bed after a weekend full of backwards sleeping.. Awake when she should be sleeping and sleeping during the day.. Wish me luck!

BYE~

Best daughter in the world!

2011-11-26T10:10:00.000+01:00

I believe I have the best daughter ever! For real! Yesterday was such a good day and made me so unbelievable happy! The morning started not so good... Tindra sounded like a whiskey drinking man when she woke up.... And was all slimy in her breathing. So we stayed at home, because I had a soar throat too...

Note to self: put on glasses next time you'll write a blog entry! Your eyes will hurt like hell!!

But after breakfast we decided to put up the Christmas decorations, since we won't be able to do it today or tomorrow. And she helped out with everything! She cleaned, hung up some stuff and she even cleaned her room without any complaints. Then she was playing nicely all day long without any whining until there was time to go tho the pizzeria! She walked nicely and we played on the way. She ate her pizza really good, she yelled at the people eating there cause they were to loud!! haha! And she walked home nicely! A whole day without whining and complaints is the best day ever! Then she fell asleep in the sofa while we were cuddling.

Today we are going to P! Tomorrow, first of Advent, we are invited to my uncle's birthday party and in the evening I will have to go light a candle in the cemetery... It's been 4 years since my grandfather suddenly passed away.
I really miss P and Tindra do to! Yesterday she said something like:

T: Mom, why do you have a picture of P on your phone all the time?
M: Well, it's my "wallpaper"..
T: Is it because you love him?
M: Aww, yes it is! :-D
T: I love to hug him! :-D
M: (Becomes the happiest mother on earth and hug and kiss her all over!)

Isn't she the sweetest? Now she will have to take a bath before we go. And I have to pack some stuff we are bringing with us.

Bye~

Hello~ Hello~ Hello~

2011-11-24T15:46:00.001+01:00

My English is going well! I get good grades, but the program where I hand in the documents... CATASTROPHIC! Noting works, I cant see the comments or the teachers "underlining" and she says I have capital letters in the end of my documents and can't open my documents, unless it's in RTF format. But I have gotten VG and MVG (Equals a C+ or a B+? Not sure about that....) on all of my tasks! Just the National test and a book report that I have to come to school for.

Yesterday Liss booked the airplane tickets to Paris! I'm so exited! :-D It's getting closer! Concert ticket - Check! Hostel booking - Check! Airplane tickets - Check! It's just the bus ticket from and to the airport in Paris left, and the Hostel we have to pay when we get there! And lot's of pocket money needed!!

Wishlist for x-mas: MONEY! Lot's of money! And a frying pan! haha!

Oh! And I need to get a new passport! Maybe next week.... A good photo this time! Not a "Russian Mafia" one! haha! And I would like a new ID... But that will have to wait!

Now I have to go get the meaning of my life! Tindra that is! yesterday when we talked about goals and dreams we talked about what keeps us going... Without Tindra I probably wouldn't be where I am today! It's like my fortune teller lady said several years ago, Tindra is here to help me! And speaking of fortune tellers! She gave me and my mother a date when something is going to happen! Nov 28 2011... This Monday! I'm a bit nervous, because I don't know if it's good or bad things that will happen!

Well.. BYE!!

2011-11-21T12:57:00.000+01:00

I just finished watching the Korean drama IRIS! And omg, I cried like a baby!! The end was terrible (in a good/bad way!) I can really recommend this drama to everyone! Even you who "don't like Asian dramas".

Synopsis.
"Two elite National Security System (NSS) agents, Hyeong-Jun (Lee Byung-Hun) and Sa-Woo (Jeong Jun-Ho), who were sworn blood brothers, both fall for fellow agent Seung-Hee (Kim Tae-Hee). Sa-Woo attempts to suppress his feelings for Seung-Hee and wishes the couple the best. Hyeon-Jun is then sent off on a solo mission to Hungary. In Hungary, Hyeon-jun accomplishes his mission and while in escape mode becomes wounded. Shortly later, Hyeon-jun finds out that he was betrayed by fellow agent Sa-woo. Seung-Hee attempts to help Hyeon-Jun escape, but a car explosion separates the two and both are misled to believe that the other person are dead. Hyeon-Jun is then saved by an unknown voice and learns of the secret society "IRIS". One year later, Hyeon-Jun returns to Korea to seek revenge. During this time, the two Koreas are set to reunify, while the group "IRIS" are intent on stopping the reunification."

The drama can be found streamed from here: http://www.mysoju.com/korean-drama/iris/

And some OST ofc for you to enjoy, "Halleluljah by Big Bang" since our dear T.O.P/Choi Seunghyun has a part in the drama as well (As if anyone haven't noticed it!)

The actors did a great job, great performance and the special effects were amazing! I'm not one who usually takes notice about effects, but this time I did and I was impressed! And not only was the acting good, the actors are really good looking, both males and females! ;-)
Lee Byung-Hun also starred in the movie "G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra" as "Storm Shadow".

And as I was sitting there, crying like a baby with my eyes all red, the doorbell rings! It was a tall, dark man.... With a package from FedEx!! I sent the man away and took my package (I do only have the need for one man in my life!) and it was the clothes I ordered before! The color doesn't match the pictures, but they are still great! I LOVE THEM! I tried them on, since there was "one size" on both of them and, yes, Korans are TINY! But they fit and I LOVE THEM!!

Today I forgot what day it was... Yes I know it's Monday, but the kindergarten was closed today.... So we got up really early (As usual!) and went there and I realized and... DAMNIT! Called the course I'm in and asked if Tindra could come too, but they sent us home! So I watched IRIS and well.. You know the rest... ;-)

We will leave for Stockholm in a few hours to meet my dear friend Liss and maybe Tan-chan for some sushi! As if I didn't had enough this weekend! Me and P made our own homemade sushi! My Maki rolls were much prettier than his! ;-)

First time making them! I'm damn proud! We made sushi for about 8 people! haha! But we ate almost all of it! Or he did, I got full after a few.. hehe! Now I have to get ready!

Bye~
Anneyong~

Ghost story?

2011-11-16T21:17:00.000+01:00

I'm feeling a bit.. Concerned... A few weeks ago I woke up in the middle of the night and the whole room was like syrup, I was moving slow and my brain and eyes were blurry. But then I looked up and saw Tindra's dolly stroller and her big horse MOVING! I shook my head in confusion and it stopped. I thought it must have been some kind of sleep illusion and shook it of. But then since Monday my whole body have been tingling and sticking/itching, just like when I use my pendulous and open my self to the spiritual world. But I have not done that in fear of what happen 2 years ago.... So... Yesterday Tindra said she didn't want to be alone in the dark bedroom, because the horse was moving before! And today she said it was scary in the bedroom because there was some noises, and even in the bathroom too... I tried to tell her it was the neighbors or the TV and that the horse didn't move, cause it can't! And she said it was in a dream, so I felt a bit better... But my "experience" felt like a dream too, only I was awake....
I will try to talk about grandpa about this! Final! Tindra should be "closed down" and not being able to see and feel anymore, the spiritual world that is! But still she is... Well, I have to see, maybe it goes away, maybe it's my imagination, maybe it's that kind of month, since my friend saw her grandmother the other day!

Today we had another difficult subject brought up, or the same subject but in a different angle. I got all depressed but got to talk about it a bit and it felt better! And today I worked out at the gym! It felt great, having so much frustration in my body! I got over my limit and hurt my bicep on my right arm.... Aouch... I will have a great pain tomorrow, not only in my arm, but in my whole body!

Now I have to get warm, in some way....

Bye~
Aneeyong~

Haengboghan! (Happy!)

2011-11-15T14:44:00.000+01:00

Even though I have had a headache for about two weeks, felt dry like a mummie yesterday, have a small cold (That I deny having!) and hate Swedish winter (Yes I hate it even without the snow!) I feel happy!
Studies are going well, a bit too easy, makes me suspicious! Time is passing without any bad news, I have money in my pocket, I have a daughter who apparently adores ME (Even though I feel like such a bad mom at some times...), I have friends that care and loves me, I have the best boyfriend ever and I have my mother, Bo and brother! The only thing I would wish for is some energy! But hey, you can't have everything! Right? ;-)

And I'm going to Music Bank Paris in February! THAT is awesome if anything! On December 3rd I'm invited to attend a "Christmas smorgasbord" (Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!) or a "Christmas buffet"... "Julbord" is such a hard word to translate! haha! Anyway, I'm invited to come with P and his family on a boat trip and eat Christmas food and spend time together! I'm really looking forward to that! I really like his family, they make me feel comfortable and happy! :-) Feels like home!!
And this weekend me and P will FINALLY have time for ourselves! Seems like ages ago....
And the Korean is finally sticking in my head I think! Oh how I have cried over my bad memory.. But I won't give up!! (Trying to think about how you say NEVER in Korean, but realize I have never heard it...haha..) Jeoldaelo! Apparantly... Mos (pronouns: "Mol"), if it's not a "yelling" word....

Anyways... I have to go do some grocery shopping and then leave for my mom's place and have dinner with my family! I love Tuesdays! And Mondays!! Wednesdays, we have workout, that's fine... Thursdays... They are kind of boring, but you know the next day is Friday and Friday means weekend, relaxing, to see P and having a good time! ^_^

I have to go!

Bye~
Anneyong~

Realization!

2011-11-14T13:00:00.001+01:00

Today I realized something... Something very hard, hard to grasp and to control. But at least I know the truth! And I know who's to blame.... And I also realized how my life have really been... Everything I have waved my hand at saying "it's normal"... It was not.
It really should be forbidden to talk about stuff like this on Mondays... Makes the rest of the week so hard to pull through.... Right now I'm emotionless, I feel nothing, I'm in a kind of chock I guess... But on the way home I was shaking and couldn't look at anyone, afraid I would burst out in tears.... And I think when the evening comes and Tindra is sleeping, it will burst.... Or maybe now... Emotional roller-coaster...

I think I need to talk about this with someone.. But who? Everything pushed down to the bottom of my heart, forgotten and buried is coming up again like a rocket shooting through my body and soul... I'm trying to hold it in, to be strong.

The first thing I did was apologizing to one person who I think really needed an apologize... It felt a bit better, and I hope that person feels better too.... And maybe realize too, some day.....

Edit: Never mind, can't help someone who can't see....

Nice dreams!

2011-11-12T11:41:00.000+01:00

I had a nice dream! I dreamed we were in Paris och saw SHINee! And we were searching for them! haha! Like crazy fan-girls! (It's a long time since I had a NICE dream!)
Yesterday we sat for about 4 hours planning the flight to Paris, might have influenced my dream? Ryan Air WAS the cheapest option and we will go for Ryan Air. But Air France had some nice offers too! Like more luggage and snacks! haha! But there is some money missing right now, we can't book it just yet... :-( Oh I wish I was rich!
I measured and weighed my bag yesterday! It's about the size agreeable, 1cm to benefit and about 2kg to benefit.... I'm a bit scared about packing.... 10 kg to me isn't that much! haha! I packed 8 kg yesterday! Only my makeup weights about 1,5kg!!

Today Tindra and I are going to my Oppa~ But I still long for the next weekend when we can be all alone!
I have got a small cold. But it WILL disappear... It will be a long trip, with Tindra, people, the stupid stroller that I hate.. Maybe I can take the blue one.....
The stains didn't go away completely, but it's only if you look really close, then you can see some dark stains.... Our neighbor asked me yesterday how I did to get the insurance money, her insurance company refused to do anything! I said she have to switch company! ;-) But her stroller was even worse than mine! And she complained about the smell in the storage room, and I agree, it's not nice....

No.... I have to see an episode of IRIS, then we have to get ready!

Bye~

I wanna!!

2011-11-10T13:40:00.000+01:00

I want to have tickets, airplane tickets, to Paris NOW! I'm going to searach for some cheap tickets. The ones Yeodongsaeng (Liss) found was cheap, but got more expensive the more you looked into it! So... Looking for airplane tickets today! Also making my English assignment, studying some Korean, make Tindra clean up her stuff, and go outside in the woods!

I don't know... YES! Oh you know how mad I was at my teacher for sending back my assignment? Yes, I finally got an answer from her.... "The thing that's wrong is that you don't have to leave in this exercise!" Couldn't she had said so the FIRST time I handed it in!?!? *Facepalm*

Now I'm going to continue washing the Korean drama IRIS! I totally LOVE it!

Bye~

World history making and birthday party!

2011-11-06T23:52:00.003+01:00

This is freaking world history!! Big Bang won the MTV EMA award for best Worldwide Act!!! FIRST KOREAN winner in EMA HISTORY!! I screamed so loud! Luckily my daughter is a heavy sleeper and didn't wake up. I'M SO HAPPY!!!! 축하 해요 BIG BANG!! ♥

“Woah, it’s amazing! Thank you so much! We are called BigBang from South Korea! It’s nice to see you and this award is all the more valuable because it’s a present that you, fans, gave us. Thank you VIPs! Please take interest in Korean Music and BigBang even more from now”
— GDragon (111106 MTV EMA Winning Speech)

I bit my lip so hard it bled! Iiiiih! I'm happy happy happy! Thank you all VIP's for voting and supporting Big Bang! ♥ I'm so happy I was a part of this happening, voting like crazy every day I could!

Message to the world: Do NEVER underestimate the power of k-pop fans!! NEVER!!! VIP!

This week have been very stressful to me. I have been cleaning and preparing for Tindra's birthday party! Tomorrow my baby is turning 4!! 4 years old! Seems like it was not long ago I held that little baby in my arms in chock... I had a baby! The sweetest baby girl ever! ♥

So, Saturday we had the kids party! 5 kids showed up and we had the Hello Kitty cake I made and a cardboard picture of Disney princesses where you could put your head out through a hole and take your picture! The kids loved it! [click for larger!]

Then we went to a Halloween party at my cousin later that night. It was fun but since I was stressed out and had another party for Tindra to prepare for on Sunday morning we got home early.

On Sunday all our relatives came and I made a "grown up chocolate cake" that was really good! I hope everyone enjoyed it! Many people in my tiny apartment! That's what you get for having a big family, but hey... I love them close!

Tindra got a princess dress from her father and his girlfriend on Saturday and wore it the whole day on Sunday/today! She was so pretty! And she got makeup from my best friend Pernilla and she put on ALLOT of it and felt so pretty! ^_^

It was a great weekend, most of it! P was here too and I felt sorry about being stressed out and couldn't relax and enjoy the time with him.... In two weeks I'm going to his place and I will not leave the apartment, or the sofa... I will just hold him as hard as I can all weekend!

Now I have to calm down and get to bed!

Bye! I love you all VIP's and all of my family and friends!!

How to describe k-pop fangirls!

2011-10-31T22:44:00.001+01:00

I found this text on a K-pop fan page on Facebook and I think it's true in many many ways! (There is no source about the psychologist thingy, but the text is good anyway!)

WHAT PSYCHOLOGIST SAID ABOUT FANGIRLS (K-POP):

A psychologist says: “Don’t underestimate those children who chase after Korean celebrities, their hearts are purer than anyone else, they love courageously, they will want to try their best to tackle difficult obstacles, the language and cultural barriers. They symbolise peace, they don’t discriminate based on race, they befriend people with the same... interest from different countries, they’re more passionate and warm than anyone else. They don’t betray the ones they like easily, they are persistent and don’t give up easily. They are stronger than anyone else on the inside, because when they are loving these Korean stars, they experience the setbacks they’ve never experienced in life. They are all sensitive children, easily touched to tears for a long time because of one incident.

Through investigation, most of them understand gratitude. Their way of thinking is different from others, they don’t easily get carried away by love, they don’t harbour thoughts of doing bad things, and their criteria when looking for a partner is very high, other than looks, personality is more important, so the rate of marriage isn’t high, but neither is the rate of divorce.

Their memory is very good, they can easily remember the korean lyrics they don’t understand, and their coordination skills are also very strong. Most of them are cheerful children, not the kind who keep to themselves. Their will of determination is also very strong, they are able to persevere all the way just to buy something related to the celebrity they like.

In short, the way these children think is vastly different from others, and their thoughts are not easy to understand. Generally, only those who have similar interests are able to enter their world.”

So it's good to like those weird gibberish talking Asians~

T.O.P ♥ (Fangasm warning!)

2011-10-28T15:39:00.000+02:00

TOP has never been shirtless but the number of girls falling for him is equivalent to the number of girls falling for K-POP guys who always show their sexy body. TOP knows that he doesn’t need to do that, that’s why he doesn't show his body because if he does…

….there’s not enough ambulances in the world to cover all them fangirls dying/choking/havingaheartattack/etc.

This is how Tabi saves the world.

The end...

Someone please call 911, I just died!!!! ♥

Vote for Big Bang @ MTV EMA 2011!!

2011-10-28T11:49:00.000+02:00

Please vote for Big Bang as #1 Worldwide Act @ MTv EMA 2011! You can vote several times until lthey say you have exceeded the amount of votes allowed. VOTE!!

Click on the picture to get to the voting site!!

As a thanks, I give you this sexy Calvin Clein video with T.O.P! ♥

Hostel!

2011-10-28T01:20:00.000+02:00

It's really late.... But as most of you know I get insomnia in autumn/winter... It fucking sux... BUT! I have some good news! We just put a small deposit on a very nice Hostel close to the Bercy arena where the concert will be held and a Chinatown near by (I have always wanted to visit Chinatown!!) and it was kind of cheep!

Pink room! Awesome! haha! We only have to share room with two strangers, I can live with that for such price!! We booked 3 nights. Yes we decided to take a day to actually see some stuff while in Paris! SHINee is the most important thing to see, but hey, we will be in PARIS!

Well I have to try to go to sleep now..

Bye~

My test...

2011-10-27T13:07:00.000+02:00

It's so stupid! I got my test back today and she said I had to make some changes! And that I should look at the answer sheet!! I HAD ANSWERS TO THE QUESTIONS? What kind of test is that? : S
I got two words wrong... "Sorry, but we have already begun (Misspelled it, now corrected!)" and "Every time he bets (Forgot the s...)on race horses he looses a lot of ...."

Simple things get hard when too simple some times... Indeed!

Well... Now I know till next time! I have answers to my test! haha! Makes it much more easier. How boring...

♥ Pinky clouds ♥

2011-10-27T11:37:00.001+02:00

I will be walking on clouds the rest of my life! ^_^
I have the best and most supporting family ever, I have the greatest and sweetest boyfriend ever and the cutest and most beautiful daughter ever. And going to Music Bank in Paris with my dear friend Liss in February makes life even more wonderful!
Yesterday I handed in my English test and my "homework" and today I will try to get some Korean into my head! I was thinking of doing next weeks English too, but then I will have nothing to do next week.... Maybe when I get much more to do later on!

In two weeks Tindra will be turning four years old! FOUR YEARS! Time fly by! We will host a Hello Kitty party with a home made Hello Kitty cake, "candy fish pond" and I was thinking of making "Candy Sushi" but I don't think the kids get the whole Sushi thing! haha! And I hope some of the kids would like to have their faces painted, if their parents let them.
Then later that day I'm invited to a Halloween party at my cousin! I think I can go, but the problem is, I'm having a party for the relatives the day after.... Maybe if I don't drink that much... ; ) ♥Wine♥

This weekend I don't get to see P.. He is going to Linköping to see a friend... Tindra was sad when she asked if P is coming here and I told her he wasn't coming this weekend... I was too! She want him to move in with us! : D She really like him! And so do I! I really miss him....♥

Yesterday I was bored... So I played with some makeup! I will try a zombie makeup 'till Halloween later on! [click for larger]

It's so hard to take pictures that shows the makeup in a good way!! But hey, even if you don't see the makeup, I have pretty eyes, don't I? ; )

Today it's raining. I like rain, but not when it's cold. And I don't like snow, cuz then I KNOW it's cold! It have already started scratching all over my body when my skin gets dry, either from the cold or the dry weather? I don't know.... All I know is that every autumn and winter it itches all over my body! I'm allergic to cold! haha! And the when the real cold comes my joints start to hurt and I have to take warm baths two times a day! And I'm freezing!! I want to live in a warm country, or maybe a country with short winters!

Oh I have to get something to eat now!

Bye~ ♥

HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-10-25T11:06:00.000+02:00

WE GOT THE TICKETS!!! I'm sitting mostly with my head between my knees to keep my self from fainting!! And I'm crying! I'M SO HAPPY!!! I had to run home and transfer some money to Liss, and I ran so fast it hurt! But I kept going! AND WE GOT THE TICKETS!!!! OMG!!!!!! I'm crying!!!

O M G I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!

2011-10-24T22:45:00.001+02:00

I... I... I... I can't believe it!!! I am going to see 3 and more awesome bands, playing live, in PARIS!! Yes I'm going to Paris and NO ONE CAN STOP ME!!!! This is once in a life time! I'm going to see SHINee!!

SHINee!!!!

And Beast and U-kiss and some other bands (2PM, 4Minute, SNSD, T-ara, SISTAR)! But best of all SHINee!!!!!!!

Ok, the tickets isn't ordered yet and the traveling and living we have to solve later on. BUT WE ARE GOING!
I'm so happy I'm crying and jumping and shaking and hyperventilating!!! I almost past out over the keyboard a moment ago!! haha! P is laughing at me, about how stupidly happy I am! And he is by far the best boyfriend ever by the way!!!! <3 This is going to be epic! No UppCon this year and no cosplay! I will stop eating candy, drinking soda, eating out and I will do EVERYTHING I can to make this happen!!

This is happening very fast! Just found out this morning that this existed and I couldn't let it go from my mind... And then my dear Liss heard about it! And We decided... WE HAVE TO GO!! So I have to wait till midnight and transfer money to her so she can buy the tickets that will be released tomorrow! It feels like a dream and I will wake up tomorrow and it will all be gone.... Omg... I'm crying again! I'M SO HAPPY!!!

SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh I will not be able to sleep at all this night! I will be dreaming about SHINee and ONEW!! Oh dear I will get to see Onew in person, maybe shake his hand and get his autograph! I will cry like a baby and faint!! I feel like a teenage schoolgirl again! haha! I will be nervous untill I get the text message from Liss that she have bought the ticket and then I will faint... Yes I will faint allot!! And then I will float on clouds!! THIS IS A DREAM COME TRUE!! Even better than Versailles!!!

I will work hard!! This is going to happen! I will study hard in school, I will learn Korean and I will do everything to get a job if I can't study! I WILL..... Make this happen!! I will LIVE for those two days!!

Here is the link to the page with more info! EPIC I tell you!!

Have to go make tea... I have to cool down, with hot tea! haha!

Bye~~~

I'm so sorry!!

2011-10-24T10:32:00.001+02:00

I am SO SO SO SORRY! I promised pictures and haven't updated for so many days! A whole week....
But I haven't had either time or energy for any thing else than what I already have to do: School, course, Korean class, convention planning, daughter and boyfriend.
But yes, I'm still happy with things (I shouldn't say that, it makes it worse!) and life goes on forward and that's good!

Now... How about some nice Autumn pictures?

Click for larger, as always! ^_^ And yes I have my wig on. Had a bad hair day!! haha! And yes my daughter is the most beautiful thing in the world! Not even the sunset can compare to her! <3

This week I have "homework" (Since I study at home it feels wrong to say homework!) and I will try to get on with my Korean too! I think I have to start over, to study the whole vowel and consonant thing more so I can read by head... I only know some of them and I have such a bad memory and forget if I can't use it every day! And who can I speak with? And I can only write Hangul on paper, not on the computer!!
And the convention plans have started again. This February I hope it will be ON!

Now I have to study some and then we have to go to the shop and buy some toilet paper.... It's hard to go to the toilet without!! haha! And MILK! (Neu - 우유 in Hangulmah!) ; ) And Tindra need to get dressed, she is naked! I don't know how she can run around in her birthday suit without getting cold! I get cold with clothes on! Well...

Bye~~
Ps: I have the greatest family ever and I love every single one of them! And I have the best boyfriend ever! <3

Today...

2011-10-16T20:19:00.000+02:00

Yesterday P came here he had some Pizza with him and other good stuff! But the best of all....
HE CAME!! : )

We spent the whole evening in the sofa and today we went for lunch at the Chinese restaurant! Then he went home... : ( I don't like when we have to separate...

There is NO MAN IN THIS WORLD who I love more than P!!
(Not even T.O.P! (; )

Now I'm tired and will go to bed! I will show you some pics tomorrow!!

Bye~

Being a mom!

2011-10-14T17:58:00.001+02:00

Today Tindra wanted Noodles for dinner! And I was thinking of making her favorite dinner today. Well OK...

When we got home today and was parking the sulky in the "stroller storeroom" I saw the floor was wet, and then the wall and then... Tindras stroller was covered in it too! I said to the man working with the elevator: "I hope this is water!!" And then I felt it and it was OIL! And I went inside, got the camera and took some pictures. In case the insurance company wanted some or as "evidence".

The man didn't even apologize and THAT was the thing that pissed me off the most! So I wasn't treating him nice either, like a bitter bitch! haha! No not really, but I asked him if he had spoken about this to his boss and he said he had called the landlord and they would take care of it.. And this makes me a bit nervous because they...... I don't like how they handle things! I still haven't got my inspection I have asked about two times now! But I called the insurance company and they put a note about it and I could call if nothing happens of if they refuse!
I have a full home insurance and it would cover this, but they would rather the one responsible for the accident would take care of it in the first hand. I have taken the covers of the stroller and will try to wash it, but how do you get rid of engine/machine oil? I hope it goes away because I was thinking of selling it this spring and split ti 50/50 with my mother, since she and Bo was the ones who bought it for us!

And now I feel like I have to write some about how much I love them, my mother and Bo!

REALLY HONTO MUCH!! (Honto means really, "really much") HONTO HONTO HONTO!!! They are the nicest parents one can have! :')

I'm so happy to have them!

And Tindra love them honto much too!!

Tindra just came inside from playing outdoor with her friend! With hands cold as ice and blue, but not from cold.... She had been eating blueberries!! haha! Her mouth was all purple and her teeth too!

After washing up! The flash makes it lighter!

Now she want to make dinner, so I have to go!

Bye~ <3

Legen.... wait for it..... dary! Suit up!

2011-10-13T23:13:00.000+02:00

SURPRISE!!!!

This is surely super cuteness overload!! I know this is an old video, but it still melts my heart, brings tears of joy to my eyes and makes my body all warm and fuzzy! I love kittehs! <3

But.. Today's post wasn't supposed to be about coote kittehs, but about the "international suit-up day" and yes.... I got suited up! Sort of... I didn't have a jacket.... :'(

But this is how I looked today!!

But this little town is kind of boring.... No one suited up! Why? Don't anyone watch "How I met your mother"? Barney? Have Facebook? AIGOO!! Not enough nerds in this town! haha! On the Facebook page there was lots of photos of people suiting up from all over the world! It's awesome! http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=131079280322659 47 000 people had signed up to join in this day! More "Stupid-things-to-do-days" please! : D I think it brings world piece in the end! ; ) This day was legen.... wait for it...... dary!

It's getting really cold here in Sweden! between +-0 and +6 degrees! I'M FREEZING!!! I hate cold... I HATE IT!! I think I was supposed to be born in a warm country but got mixed up in universe before I got "made" haha! I already have my winter jacket on and it smells like cigarette smoke!! I stopped smoking in February, and it's still in the fabric, mostly in the fake fur.... I tried perfume today, and will have some more on tomorrow.. But how can it still be stuck like that? Anyone have a tip? Wash it? Is it the only way?

The stupid full moon make my sleep a living hell! This time I fell asleep, but woke up about 120 times!! For no reason! So many times I don't even remember my dreams... I hate it... I'm so tired but can't sleep. It's frustrating.... But... I have to go to sleep now....

Bye~

2011-10-12T08:34:00.000+02:00

I have such an unfortunate daughter... Yesterday when I went to get her at kindergarten I saw her face and suddenly she started crying and I saw she was in pain.... She had hit her tooth on a seesaw and it was a bit loose an it bled. I asked my mother to call the dentist and we got an appointment today in the morning. So we are getting ready now. It felt good to sleep in for a change! And not have to stress!! But bad because it's cause of Tindras tooth.... But I don't think there will be any problems. It hurts a bit she says, but I hope it will stuck again and there will be no problems!

STARTING SCHOOL ON MONDAY! Yeay!

Have to get ready!

Bye~

Turn it UP!

2011-10-10T15:11:00.002+02:00

This weekend have been awesome! And today, thou it's Monday, was awesome! Let's start from Friday:

I went by bus to Stockholm and met up with P for some kisses and hugs! I'd really missed him! <3 And then he went for dinner with a friend and I got on the train to Norrköping! I was on my way to see my dear friend Liss! But about half way the train suddenly stoped, in the middle of no where.... Engine failure! WHOOT! Instead of arriving at 19.50 as I was supposed to, I got there at 20.40... But I met Liss when I got there and we went to her place. Her doggie is so cute!! We sat and listened to music and fan-girled a bit before we (read I) fell asleep!

Saturday we went down town and looked at everything we wanted but couldn't buy... And then we went back for some Sushi! And oh my! It was the best Sushi I have ever tasted! I will definitely come back and have Sushi there! And to see Liss ofc.. ; )
And then we went home, opened a bottle of whine and talked and danced and had my home made Kimchi with noodles! I fell asleep as usual while looking at Korean show "Star King"... hehe!

Sunday was a bit depressed.. I was going home. No more co-fan-girl-ism! But I had a great time with Liss and Ecko and I will surely miss them and I will come back soon!

Today then... Monday, over slept and woke up with a terrible headache. We stayed at home... But the day got better! I got an e-mail saying I got into the school and will start class in October 17'ht by reading English A. Again, I now... But miss-communication was the problem before and now I know she means I have to do it ANYWAY even if she doesn't say so!
And today I finally started my Korean course! Fist class just ended and I now know how to wright some words in Hangul and I know most of the vowels and consonants by head!

I can't wright Korean om my computer, so I have everything on paper.... Stupid computer... But I have learned:

Thank you

Hello

I love you

Bangseju (An alcoholic beverage! haha!)

Idiot/fool

"Give me please"/Here (A command)

And I wrote P's Korean name too! : D This is so fun! And much easier than Japanese I tell you!! Those who said Japanese was easier, go f**k yourselves! I know 2 Japanese Kanji/Hiragana after reading online/videos in 2-3 weeks and I know almost the whole alphabet in Korean after just one class, about 1 hour video! And tonight I will watch class 2! Because I'm a bit behind since my computer won't show Hangul signs, instead just squares! So I had to Google and write it down on a paper. And I guess I have to do the same now....
But it's fun!!

And soon I will study English too! And my Korean class is in English so I will have use for both! Yeay! Life fee... Wait.. Every time I say so, it goes wrong.. So I won't! Life sux! ^_^

Well.. Now I have to Google some pictures and drool a bit and maybe watch Star King and learn some more Korean! hihi! : D

Bye!

High high!

2011-10-05T22:13:00.001+02:00

I just saw my favorite program online, I missed it this Monday cus I was sick and thought it was Sunday! Even if I knew it was Monday... Cus I called in sick... Mucus in my brain?
Anyway... It was about a couple on a farm with horses. And at a point the medium said there was a horse that had died and come back as a spirit! And instantly I started crying (Cus they were crying) and suddenly I felt like a chock-wave went through me and a picture of our old horse Cilla came up! And I started crying even more, turned to her picture and I started missing her like h*ll. I wasn't that old when we sold her, but I still remember some of her, like her gentle spirit and sort of stubborn playfulness. I sent a text message to mum and said I missed her when I watched the program and she said she felt the same when she saw it, that she had thought of Cilla too!

~Love~

And the mum started writing about our old cat Grållan and then I started crying even more.... I think I'm very emotional or sensitive today! But... I miss them, allot! Specially Grållan... I didn't get to say good bye to her.... She was a very special cat. She gave me a very fancy scar right by my left eye when I was a kid and tried to cuddle her tummy! haha! B I G mistake! hehe! But on the other side I have a memento of her! <3 I don't have a picture of her on the computer, but she was such a beautiful cat! Gray/brown-isch with tufts (How do you say? "Toffsar" in Swedish...) on her ears like a lynx or a squirrel! <3 So cute! And intelligent!! I really miss her, her special smell (yes cats have special smells too!) and her cozy, fluffy belly fur (that I was able to pet when I got older! hehe!) and her intelligent eyes.

Oh if I could get back every pet I have ever had... One of them I think is still alive, my best friend and companion, Fred. A German Shepherd with a split tongue. He followed me everywhere! EVERYWHERE!! He even slept with me in my bunk bed some times and escaped when I was horse watching for a friend/neighbor and ran all the way along the freeway and through the forest and found me and my friend, 3-4 kilometers away! I was soooo mad at him but in the same way impressed he could find us! And happy that he loved me so much! : D By bestest friend who I sat in the forest with and hugged, cried in his fur and got wet kisses from when school sucked and I was bullied... Oh dear I'm crying again... haha!

But I have two stupid cats now who I love very much! Tarzan who is slowly showing progress from his insecurity and depression (But it gets worse in winter..) and Ceacar who is the cuddliest cat you can ever find! I promise!!

My sweet Panther, Tarzan!

Baka Neko Ceacar <3

Well, it's getting late and I have to see if P is alive! haven't heard from him since this morning! And YeS we talk every day like stupid love fools! haha! Oops, he just sent me a text message! "I'm still woorking, I'll call you later, ok? Kisses!" Scary! haha! But anyway, I have to rest my back....

Bye~

* Ahchoo*

2011-10-02T19:25:00.000+02:00

My cold is getting worse... It started with just a soar throat and now I got a running nose, headache and I feel like I've been hit by a train.... And yesterday P came here and I felt a bit bad about having a cold. I hope he doesn't get infected....
He really is the strength in my life, except Tindra! These two make me want to fight and to be a better person! I know you say the same thing every time you meet someone new to date, but this feels a bit different.. We have only been together for about 3 months and I could defiantly say this is the one! The one I can spend my whole life with! It's not only love, it's security, respect and unity. He completes me and I hope he feels the same about me. We get along together in most and can always compromise about stuff. I love it, I love him!

Today after P went home I started looking for jobs and I almost broke down, nothing new since 4 days back! And all there is in nearby towns are doctor-, nurse-, teacher- or engineering jobs! Or personal assistance jobs with heavy lifting and I don't know if I can do that! With children it's OK, I can lift a child. But I can't support a 130 kg man, with or without back problems! I just have to keep searching in every place I can find! maybe I can apply for a job as a nurse without an education! If I don't have to put needles in people! haha! Or as a doctor and do surgery on people without knowing what I'm doing!

Aah my head is hurting...

OH! I finally started with my Kimchi! In 4 days I can (hopefully) enjoy my homemade Kimchi!

Oki then bye bye~

B I G girl!

2011-09-30T21:49:00.001+02:00

Today my little baby girl is sleeping in her bed without a diaper! If it goes well I might have to sell the package of diapers I just bought... -___-' But I'm glad she is willing to try and I will do my best to wake up at 03.00 and go with her to the bathroom... *I love my sleep* But I also love my daughter! ♥

My throat is still hurting allot and I'm drinking tea and hoping it helps. But I think ice cream would be better. Right?

Oh! I applied for a job today that would be fun if they even called! As a youth leader in a recreation center! But it's in Stockholm, Nacka, so IF I get the job I have to solve the traveling/living situation in some way. But I don't think I get the job, I just hope!

Now it's ZOMBIE time!!! : D *Happy Teri*

Bye~

Mu Bus!

2011-09-30T14:32:00.000+02:00

I'm sick... : ( But I'm still torturing my poor body cuz I really need to clean the apartment! But it's allot easier when you have good music on! As a few of you know I have two favorite male actors from Korea: Jang Geun Suk and Kim Jae Wook (Both starring in "Marry me! Mary" was totally AWESOME!!) and I have also fallen for a song from the same drama, "My Bus! - Jang geun Suk"

It's a really awesome song and the one putting this video together had found some awesome pics of JGS! *Droool* His smile is like.. Melting like ice... <3

I'm about to start watching "Bad guy" with Kim Jae Wook and I loved him in "Coffe Prince" even tho he played a small part I fell in love with him! ^_^ His eyes are like dark chocolate! <3

(Sorry Hun, they are all pretty,

but you are my sexy, sweet,

loving manly man and

I love you and only you!

For ever! ;) )

Being a boyfriend of a fan-girl/otaku must be really hard! haha! But I guess if he loves me he understand and bare with it.. ; ) It reminds me of the Japanese drama "How to date an Otaku" haha! But I'm not THAT extreme, I'm a very light otaku! (That drama was OK, btw!) No... I have to get going! Have to clean.....

Oh and by the way... I'M DISAPPOINTED AT YOU! Reading my blog and NEVER comment when I ask you to.. Not even once..... T___T

A few friends write occasionally, I love them! But there are allot of people I don't know who is reading and I would like to know what YOU like about MY BLOG!

OK?

Now I have to go... ^_^
Bye~~

Today~

2011-09-26T20:51:00.000+02:00

It's funny how my grandmother can be sometimes! Oh how I love her! <3 Today she called and said:
She: "You know when I said you looked terrible... I did kind of like it that way, your black-isch hair and the bangs... And I think you and P will be good together if it works..."
Me: "Thank you, I guess! ^_^ What works?"
She: "Yes, if you two get married some day!" <3
Haha, isn't she sweet? She says some funny things sometimes! ^_^ But I'm glad she liked P and I hope she will live to see us get married, if we ever do! And I hope we do... ; ) But in the City Hall... Not in church... Since I don't believe in some God...

Tonight my favorite TV program is on. "The unknown" (Det Okända). About mediums and spirits haunting houses of ordinary people here in Sweden. I LOVE IT! I believe my spiritual time have passed, I guess it was too much for me last summer when I had this ghost at home that took allot of energy from me. I don't want that to ever happen again, so I guess I have "closed" my mind from it... But it's still fun to see on TV!

Oh and today I heard the whole "Super Junior - A-CHA" and... Well I don't know if I like it or not..... It has its good and its bad parts and it's still the same boring dance routine in a funky room with lots and lots of lights.... Bring something more interesting Super Junior!! WE WANT ACTION (And some skin please!!).

Oh it's almost starting, my TV program! Gotta go!!

BYE~

V-log!

2011-09-25T23:14:00.000+02:00

My first v-log! Hope you enjoy it! <3

Perfect weekend!

2011-09-25T20:35:00.002+02:00

I'm so happy! This weekend was perfect and today I ordered tickets to go to Norrköping to see a friend of mine who I miss very much over the weekend (7'Th to9'Th of October) ! An awesome weekend indeed!
On Friday we got to meet P's sister and her little baby girl! So adorable!!! And we had dinner with his parents, sister and little brother. It was very tasty and I had a great time even thou I was extremely tired... We went straight to bed when we got home.
Saturday I found out another friend was visiting Stockholm so we met her for a short while, a bit too short, next time it will be longer! Then we went to get glasses for P and I made a bargain for him! Allot cheaper than it's supposed to be! And then we went and had lunch at the pizzeria where we had our first date! <3 We bought Kimchi for dinner at a Korean chop and went shoe shopping! Got a pair of shoes for the price of baby toys! ; ) Half price too! Then we went home, cuddled for a while and had Kimchih for dinner and IT WAS AWESOME! I loved it! I so want to go to Korea and EAT! haha! Shop and eat! : D
Today, Sunday, we just sat and talked, ate more Kimchi (I couldn't stop!) and then it was time for me to go home.
At "home" I went to the store to buy food, but I forgot the most importat thing! TOILET PAPER! So my sweet darling brother came over with some so we could "go"... haha! Thank you brother I love you!! <3

I hope this week will be good! I feel good and I want it to be good! : D
Now time for some drama!

Bye~

It's a mild obsession.....

2011-09-23T12:03:00.000+02:00

"You don't really need someone to complete you.

You only need someone to accept you completely."

Today I'm going home to P's parents house to see his sister and her husband and their little baby girl. So Later I have to go shop for a present! P is coming too ofc, to his parents. I'm still a bit nervous meeting them! haha! I have bought a new shirt and painted my nails and planned my hair and makeup! haha! I'm stupid. But who doesn't want to be the perfect girl for someones baby-boy? ^_^

Today I heard the preview of Super Junior - A-CHA... Well I'm not sure what to think of it.... I guess if you listen to it a few more times or hear the whole song it will be great!

Another song that have grown on to me is 4Minute - Heart to Heart. The boy in the video is kind of cute! Even thou he is a PIG!! It looks like he has lip gloss on and that is so cute! haha!

He gets what he deserves! : D But still the song is catchy and perky! I like it! Even thou it's really not my kind of song, but I guess Iv'e softened cus I'm also listening to Wondergirls - Nobody! haha! Where did my hard beat pop/rock go?

Yesterday in the bath I was listening to Versailles and OMG I almost cried remembering seeing them live a few months ago! I really wish I get the chance to see them again! I tear up even thinking about it!!! They went to Germany a while ago I think... If they come to London I might buy a ticket. I guess they won't come to Sweden again...

I have to go and get ready to get downtown... My hair is living its own life right now, like a twirl... Looks crazy!

I'll finish with a pic of my very pink daughter! The only thing missing is her big dark pink jacket. But she loves pink and so do I... Then this is what happens. ; )

Oki then bye bye~

ZzZzZz....

2011-09-22T10:09:00.000+02:00

These last few days have been like.. Like a rock fell on my head! I have been depressed, happy, full of energy and so low on energy I fell asleep.... Yesterday they called from the kindergarten and said Tindra had been in a "fight" and was bleeding from her nose and it didn't want to stop bleeding. So I had to come to eventually take her to the hospital if it didn't want to stop. But when I got there it had stopped and we went home to rest. I fell asleep in the sofa while she was eating her lunch she got from kindergarten and then I went to bed and slept for about two hours. Tindra went to bed too for a while. And then in the evening I could have fell asleep at 8 in the evening! But I had to bathe and was talking to P for a few hours. He sang "good night songs" to me! : D <3

Tomorrow we will get to meet his sister and her little baby! So I'm going baby shopping tomorrow!!! I hope I can stick to just one thing. Baby thingies are so cute!! We are having dinner at his parents house and this will be the first time for me meeting his sister and her husband!

Oh I'm still so tired... I could sleep the whole day. If Tindra hadn't woke me up this morning, I wonder how long I would have been sleeping. I'm exhausted yet again! I wonder why... I don't do anything particular during the days, I'm just sitting listening to boring stuff I have already heard 439 times before.... How can that be exhausting? But ofc I have been stressed out of my mind about money and having something to eat these last 2 weeks.... Now I got money fortunately! Maybe I have to sleep for a whine during the day today... AND I have a soar throat again... I don't get it... Can't I just get really sick for a short while and it will be over. Why do I have to be a little sick for a very long time instead!?

Tindra is being rebellious right now... I don't have the energy to do anything. It's hard being alone parent... Every time she starts acting up I just want to cry and go to bed.... Why can't kids just be nice all the time! And hug and kiss allot! She never want to kiss or hug anymore... And she is always crying for her father...

My back is getting better a little by little. It still hurts like hell but at least I can sit for a while now! And sleep without problems! Sleep... Getting more tired.... Maybe I need to rest....

Bye~

Emo...

2011-09-18T22:22:00.000+02:00

I'm so bad at this! Thank god I'm not a famous blogger or making money out of my blog! haha! But yet again, nothing special to report!
P was here this weekend! Friday was my dear sweet mothers birthday! Tindra was cranky and whiny all weekend and I was too....

I think I have some sort of autumn depression.... Everything is like a roller-coaster: My emotions, my mood, my body... I feel like crying most of the time and I feel bad about it when P was here and I got all emotional because I looked bad today and instead of telling him I got mad.... I'm so sorry Hon... But sometimes it's so HARD to put emotions into words and when he sits down and want to talk about it it just makes me even worse! I don't know what to say, how to explain... I know exactly what I want, but to tell him without sounding like a egoistic diva is impossible... Since I have learned about how he works, how he thinks, I would say it is impossible to say either way!

I will try to wright everything down.... To show him.. He will be mad!! But then we can talk and compromise and get to know each other more! I feel so complicated! like my brain is some kind of system more mysterious than universe itself!

I have to stop now.. feels like I'm saying to much! haha!

Bye!

Spine problems!

2011-09-15T18:42:00.000+02:00

Went to the physiotherapist today! It was worse than I expected... I thought she would just crack some bones and I would be fine! But it wasn't that simple... I got a degenerated spine disc... It means it's compressed the wrong way and maybe leaking fluid. When I lie down or stretch my spine it's absorbing new fluids and get back to "normal" again. But it have to heal and it takes a while. I can't sit long periods of time (like now!) and I can't lift stuff. I have to stretch the spine and stretch my anterior thigh and hip muscles cus they are so tight and pull the spine forward, making it worse... So, maybe next week or on the 26'Th I will be back to see how the "rehab" is going and get a program or something to help it get better and keep it from happening again.

So when I'm done here telling you this (I'm actually a bit scared.. How fragile the body really is!) I will do some stretching and then I have to continue cleaning... Tomorrow P will come and I want it to be perfect! That means I will be crawling around on the floor and lift allot... But hey, that's what painkillers are for, right? ( I know she said I can't do that, but I HAVE TO CLEAN!! No one else does it for me.....) Gaaah...

Well... Let's get starting before it's time for Tindra to sleep!

Bye...

Pon pon~

2011-09-14T19:01:00.000+02:00

It's dangerous to clean!! I broke a nail and tore the skin under my thumbnail and it started to bleed... Allot!! And I have muscle pain in my STOMACH for some reason! Strange... But at least now the kitchen is clean.

Tindra went to the neighbor, her best friend, and had dinner (Without telling me!) so that gives me time to clean some more. I just have to take a short brake... *Pjuh* I don't understand how the kitchen cabinets get so dirty!! It's like they absorb grease and dirt. Nothing gets them clean any more!
The bathroom is already done since Monday, I only have the worst, the hallway, the living room and bedroom left. Oh wait, that's everyting!! (-___-´)

Yesterday was a good day! First I was allowed to continue my practice for about 4,5 month!!! And then I saw a sign om my way home:

So I went inside the shop and applied for the job. And when I was on my way to get Tindra I dropped by my landlord and asked for new wallpapers and they will come next week to inspect the apartment. And I got an appointment at the physiotherapist (tomorrow!) and a super good dinner at my mom's place! A great day!

Today was OK! The course was good, we talked about communication! And then we had workout, boxercise, but I couldn't join cus of my back.... So I lied down in a foam pad on the floor and felt sorry about my self for a while. I wanted to be able to join too! But they said we will be doing this 3 more times (I hope I'm still there next time then!).

Well I have to get on with the cleaning!!

Bye~~

A strange weekend indeed!

2011-09-12T10:57:00.000+02:00

Oh what a weekend... Both good and terrible! Me and P had a fight yesterday, but talked it out and talked for several hours after about allot of sensitive stuff... Made me all emotional and even more in love!

But the weekend then.... Friday night I went to P and we had an awesome time! Well, until I fell asleep... hehe! Saturday we had a cozy morning but P went away to a crayfish party with this workmates. I wasn't invited...
So I was left alone and my friends didn't have time to spend with me... 2 times I went to town and one time I walked back home. Takes about 40 minutes if you walk fast/power walk. [Click for bigger!]

And when I sat on the bus in to town I saw a man passed out in the street. Didn't think more about it... But when I was on my way home, 2 hours later, he was still there passed out and people just walked by him! He was about 30-35 years old, not a homeless person, well dressed and clean. So I did what every person should have done (But no one other did!!) I called 112 (emergency phone) and said there was a man lying passed out and have been for a long time. Both the telephone operator and I was surprised that no one had called about it! But she sent a police car to see him and I went home. Later they called me and said he wasn't there so at least he was alive! (He looked so still, I thought he could be dead!) But it took the police 40 minutes to get to the place where the man was, and that's a bit sad... There was police cars passing by every minute when I walked by there, it shouldn't have taken that long!
I spent the whole evening alone. And all of you who know me know I can't be alone! Especially at night, and now I wasn't even at my own place. I watched the Korean drama "Mary stayed out all night", ate pizza and drank beer. And when the night came I went to bed, but woke up to every sound I heard hoping it was P coming home. And when he finally came I was tired and sad.. But we talked about it in the morning and it was all fine! Especially when he said we absolutely should go to the Easter Asian Museum where I wanted to go! I was so happy! <3
We got there and saw some cosplayers who had decided to meet there for a cosplay contest and we went inside the museum and the display was mostly about China! Awesome china/porcelain (Yes I'm getting old!!) and a very interesting display, even thou I couldn't read much cus my eyes hurt... Even with my glasses! Met some friends who was in cosplay and saw some awesome archery before we went to have dinner together! SUSHI as I wanted! ; ) It was an awesome day! [Click Pic For Bigger!]

But then... We had this fight, not as awesome... But it was good, we resolved allot of stuff! And it ended well!

Oh and also! Yesterday my lower back cracked and IT FELT SO GOOD I CRIED!! Now it doesn't hurt as much! Just the upper part that is hurting still... I think I have some sort of muscle inflammation like I had when I was pregnant.

Today it's raining and my eyes still hurt.. I wonder what it is! Headache of some sort maybe? I want tomorrow now, cus tomorrow I'm finally having my meeting with the employment services, talking about my future! And then I want Friday so P can get here and hopefully stay the whole weekend! And my mothers birthday is Friday! My dear mother, I love you very very much!! <3

Have to go! Bye~~

Bringing Sexy Back?

2011-09-08T12:10:00.000+02:00

Hello everyone, sorry for taking so long! But this week I have... I don't know! I have been falling asleep everywhere, being so frickin' tired and I have pain all over my body! So i didn't have the energy to blog and nothing to blog about! "Today I was tired, slept a bit 2 times today..."

My glasses are so smudgy it feels like I'm sitting in a fog! haha!

Today I gave up a bit om my Rikku cosplay.... I don't have the money or the time to make it.... But instead I will make a Lucy cosplay from Elfen Lied! This version:

I think it will be cheaper and it will only be the helmet that takes time! And NO I will not be NAKED! I will make a Body-stocking... ; ) Found a tutorial that was easy to follow and I have my own ideas! And the helmet I have to make out of Styrofoam... Maybe even make the other "half-helmet version" so I get to wear a wig and lenses too! ; )

Now I have to eat lunch! Noodles in a cup! yeay! And my back is killing me, so I have to lie down on the floor a bit.... I hate getting old!
Oh and have I told you how much I LOVE 2NE1! Follow them on YouTube, 2NE1 TV is awesome! : )

Bye~~

Fan-girl-ism~

2011-09-01T16:42:00.000+02:00

I was thinking the other day (What!? Me thinking? Nooo...) about my fan-girl-ism! ^_^ Poor P have to bare me saying how cute the pop-band boys are! haha! But that's what you get for dating an Otaku girl! But how mush I nosebleed over cute pop star boys, I will always be his biggest fan-girl. He is my biggest fan that is! And the best thing is, I can touch him, kiss him, hug him! Other fan-girls can't! *3* ~<3
So I really hope he doesn't feel bad about me fan-girling! haha! It's just fantasies, he is real! hehe!

Sooo.... Let's talk about ONEW!!! My "pet"! So cute I just want to hug him and squeeze him and pet him and... Aaahh.... Just look at him!!

SO CUTE I GET DIABETES!!

Fu fu fu fu! <3 ^_^ I think even boys could fall in love with this cute little boy! Big strong men will melt away when they see his sweet innocent smile~ Aahhh..... I want him as my dongsaeng (Little brother)! hihi!

Just look at him!!

Onew will always be my favorite k-pop star and will always have a special place in my heart! <3 Since SHINee was the first k-pop band that really got me stuck in the k-pop swamp! And from there it got worse... ; ) No I haven't listen to k-pop that long, about a year? I was more into rock and j-metal/rock before. But then I found out how dance-able k-pop really is, and hey, I love to dance!! And later I found out how CUTE the k-pop band boys really are! Iiiih! ^_^
I don't mind sexy j-rockers either, but... Cute is the word of today! (I will never forget sexy Kamijo of Versailles! NEVER!! *Fan-girl crying moment*) Oh well....

SHINee (Is pronounced "Shiny") just released a new song [Liss] just told me (She is a even bigger fan-girl!!)! It's called Kiss Kiss Kiss! And It's really good! I can't wait for more songs, and some sexy dancing!!!!

Here you go! Enjoy~

Enough with the fan-girling now I think... For a while.... ; ) I will take some time looking at "Mary stayed out all night" (Oh dear, Jang Guen Suk and Kim Jea Wook... Dreamy! <3 ) and then I have to make dinner! Tindra is out playing with her friend so I take the opportunity to enjoy being an Otaku! : )

Bye for now~~